Posted by Dinah on July 22, 2005, at 8:00:05
The intensity of how bad I feel right now is way out of proportion to the triggers. Even though one trigger was sort of a shadow of one of my greatest OCD fears. And the losses reminded me of other losses. But even so, I know I don't *always* react this badly.
I'm going to talk to my therapist about it. Maybe there's something biochemical going on. Not that I'll do anything about it, because my biochemical reactions rarely last long enough for meds to work, but it would give me a new perspective, I think.
The intensity is just too much to be normal, even for me. Like I often feel like my hands or arms don't belong to me, but I had a bout of that in session that was so extreme that my hair felt like some external thing bugging the heck out of me by feeling so weird. Or I take Risperdal as needed, but it's been needed every day this week.
Or maybe... Maybe the feelings get so intense and make me forget the original trigger. But the door to that particular emotional well opens and a whole bunch spills out.
I dunno. I just wish I would get back to my normal dysthmic self.
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