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Posted by Phillipa on September 11, 2006, at 21:26:15
In reply to It is that... » Dinah, posted by Racer on September 11, 2006, at 20:56:04
I have mixed feelings on that as part of me says it's healty to be able to cry now and in front of people and part of me says oh I must be more depressed as I'm crying and didn't used to. But maybe I just finally realized that I can no longer deny certain things in my life and take responsiblility for the. And money I have to pay all my own expenses even medical from my SSDI. My husband feels no responsibility for any of my expenses so you guys are pretty lucky. Love Phillipa
Posted by ClearSkies on September 12, 2006, at 4:50:13
In reply to It is that... » Dinah, posted by Racer on September 11, 2006, at 20:56:04
>
> Money is a sore topic between us, and I'm terrible about it. I'm not working, and didn't earn as much as he did even when I was working. (Think: maybe 30% of what he earns, even in my best year.) He says things about money, like telling me that he'll pay for me to go to school, and not to worry about it not being worth it -- longer story -- but then every so often he comes out with something absolutely counter to that idea.
>
> And sometimes I get the very strong feeling that I'm supposed to do all the housework because I don't earn money. He denies that, but he also doesn't ever do ANYTHING around here to help. That's a real problem for me, especially when I'm in "shut down" mode, like now, and can't do anything myself...
>Racer, this describes my experiences exactly. Of course, I have a boatload of guilt and shame at being a truly non-productive member of the household. I mean, even the cat brings home a little something now and then. Even if it's not quite currency.
CS
Posted by ClearSkies on September 12, 2006, at 4:54:13
In reply to Re: It is that... » Racer, posted by Phillipa on September 11, 2006, at 21:26:15
> I have mixed feelings on that as part of me says it's healty to be able to cry now and in front of people and part of me says oh I must be more depressed as I'm crying and didn't used to. But maybe I just finally realized that I can no longer deny certain things in my life and take responsiblility for the. And money I have to pay all my own expenses even medical from my SSDI. My husband feels no responsibility for any of my expenses so you guys are pretty lucky. Love Phillipa
Ouch! Phillipa, I don't think that "lucky" is an accurate description of what it feels like in my situation. If I had ANY income whatever, it would go right into the household to pay my way. The fact that I have nothing to contribute monitarily is yet another load onto my own poor self esteem.
CS
Posted by ClearSkies on September 12, 2006, at 5:25:42
In reply to Re: It is that..., posted by ClearSkies on September 12, 2006, at 4:54:13
Posted by ju§tyourlaugh on September 12, 2006, at 10:43:58
In reply to Re: It is that... » Racer, posted by Phillipa on September 11, 2006, at 21:26:15
i dont feel lucky. i feel worthless.
im sitting here while the word continues behind the curtins.
Posted by ju§tyourlaugh on September 12, 2006, at 10:48:08
In reply to Re: It is that... » Racer, posted by ClearSkies on September 12, 2006, at 4:50:13
i wish i knew what to say?
come over and bake cookies with me.
Posted by ClearSkies on September 12, 2006, at 13:34:49
In reply to Re: It is that... » ClearSkies, posted by ju§tyourlaugh on September 12, 2006, at 10:48:08
> i wish i knew what to say?
> come over and bake cookies with me.
>Yes!! Oatmeal, chocolate chip, peanut butter??
Yes, yes yes!
CS
Posted by Racer on September 12, 2006, at 14:22:57
In reply to Re: It is that... » ju§tyourlaugh, posted by ClearSkies on September 12, 2006, at 13:34:49
Posted by ClearSkies on September 12, 2006, at 16:01:08
In reply to Chocolate crinkles? (nm) » ClearSkies, posted by Racer on September 12, 2006, at 14:22:57
This is soooo bad. I'm a cookie junky, I must be.
Pie? No thanks.
Cake? No, I just ate.
Pudding? Are you kidding?But - Cookies?? - always and whenever.
CS
Posted by Phillipa on September 12, 2006, at 19:48:15
In reply to Re: It is that..., posted by ClearSkies on September 12, 2006, at 4:54:13
Clear Skies not my choice as Greg insisted on three checking accounts. One his, one mine, one ours. The ours pays for electiricity and stuff like that. I guess I'm used to paying for my own house, boat, car and all my expenses when working. We by no means have a traditinal realationship as i did with my first husband. He paid for everything. I was supposed to cook, clean, shop and take care of the house. Love Phillipa
Posted by ClearSkies on September 13, 2006, at 12:29:55
In reply to Re: It is that... » ClearSkies, posted by Phillipa on September 12, 2006, at 19:48:15
> Clear Skies not my choice as Greg insisted on three checking accounts. One his, one mine, one ours. The ours pays for electiricity and stuff like that. I guess I'm used to paying for my own house, boat, car and all my expenses when working. We by no means have a traditinal realationship as i did with my first husband. He paid for everything. I was supposed to cook, clean, shop and take care of the house. Love Phillipa
My point, Phillipa, is that it's not by choice that I do not contribute monitarily to the household. I have no income, zilch. If I did, it would go right into the running of the housejold, no question of it.
That I have no income to contribute is the thing that contributes to poor self esteem for me.I think you have not acknowledged this, and I feel frustrated that I did not make myself clear.
ClearSkies
Posted by Phillipa on September 13, 2006, at 13:03:25
In reply to Didn't make myself clear » Phillipa, posted by ClearSkies on September 13, 2006, at 12:29:55
Clear Skies sorry but my point is really the same as when the medical expenses are paid there is nothing to go into the household expenses. I was earning money like you were and I'm also dealing with self-esteem issues by not contributing. I have offered the money in my money market account. But it accomplishes nothing as when it's gone there is nothing. It's a sercuritiy blanket for us. See I've always paid half. Love Phillipa we've said our next move will be to a trailer. And somewhere where the taxes are less.
Posted by AuntieMel on September 13, 2006, at 14:20:25
In reply to It is that... » Dinah, posted by Racer on September 11, 2006, at 20:56:04
Money is a touchy issue, indeed.
We've pretty much got a rule that if the price is 3 digits or more we talk about it. Not that we don't sometimes do it anyway.
I stink at money management, but I at least had the good sense to marry someone good at it. Unfortunately for him he's put in the position of being the bad guy a lot.
And it doesn't have anything to do with income. Our incomes were neck-and-neck for years, then he pulled ahead and eventually made a *lot* more than me. But he's since quit and started his own business and now I make twice as much as him. It didn't change how we deal with money issues one whit.
Posted by ClearSkies on September 13, 2006, at 14:59:00
In reply to Re: Didn't make myself clear » ClearSkies, posted by Phillipa on September 13, 2006, at 13:03:25
(Throws up hands in frustration and walks away.)
Posted by Phillipa on September 13, 2006, at 16:10:42
In reply to I give up. » Phillipa, posted by ClearSkies on September 13, 2006, at 14:59:00
How do you think it feels not to have a nickle left for the household? I want to work and can't. At least our mortgage is paid. So what would you have me do? It's our personal arrangement. All marriages decide ahead of time how finances will be handled. Ours was yours, mine, and ours. That way I bought what I needed with what I earned. He did the same. Now I don't have insurance he does so I have to pay all medical expenses for me. $825 a month doesn't go far. Love Phillipa
Posted by gardenergirl on September 13, 2006, at 17:27:20
In reply to Re: I give up. » ClearSkies, posted by Phillipa on September 13, 2006, at 16:10:42
I could be wrong, but I don't think CS was suggesting you need to do anything different. I think she was expressing her feelings about her own situation.
gg
Posted by Racer on September 13, 2006, at 17:33:18
In reply to Re: I give up. » Phillipa, posted by gardenergirl on September 13, 2006, at 17:27:20
I got the feeling that CS was expressing frustration at both her own situation, and at the sense that her situation was being compared to another which she sees as very much unlike hers.
I know I get my back up when someone says, "Oh, that's just like me!" when I don't see any similarity.
Then again, could be I'm just projecting...
Posted by ClearSkies on September 13, 2006, at 17:43:12
In reply to And maybe... » gardenergirl, posted by Racer on September 13, 2006, at 17:33:18
> I got the feeling that CS was expressing frustration at both her own situation, and at the sense that her situation was being compared to another which she sees as very much unlike hers.
>
> I know I get my back up when someone says, "Oh, that's just like me!" when I don't see any similarity.
>
> Then again, could be I'm just projecting...
You and GG got it right in one. I am finding the correct words be be hard to find today. Thanks.
Posted by ju§tyourlaugh on September 13, 2006, at 17:48:24
In reply to Re: And maybe... » Racer, posted by ClearSkies on September 13, 2006, at 17:43:12
sorry..i am guilty of comparison when you needed support.
Posted by ClearSkies on September 13, 2006, at 19:04:34
In reply to cs.., posted by ju§tyourlaugh on September 13, 2006, at 17:48:24
> sorry..i am guilty of comparison when you needed support.
Hardly! You give me plenty of support, jyl.
Posted by Phillipa on September 13, 2006, at 19:11:01
In reply to Re: cs.. » ju§tyourlaugh, posted by ClearSkies on September 13, 2006, at 19:04:34
So lets agree that our lives are different and forget it. It's not important enough to me to lose a friend. I'm sorry Clear Skies. I hope you can forgive me. Love Phillipa
Posted by Phillipa on September 13, 2006, at 21:21:02
In reply to Re: cs.. » ClearSkies, posted by Phillipa on September 13, 2006, at 19:11:01
But one thing. I had a great lawyer in Connecticut when I got divorced after 21 years. She taught me to always make sure I have my own savings account and my own credit cards, and own car in my name. As you never know what will happen in life. I never knew my husband was cheating on me and I'd have to divorce him. I wouldn't have had the $5000 to put down to hire a lawyer if not for my savings. Women need to be prepared for everything. If your husband were to drop dead how long would probate hold everything up. This advise all from my lawyer and glad of it. Love Phillipa to women everywhere.
Posted by ju§tyourlaugh on September 14, 2006, at 1:21:23
In reply to Re: cs.., posted by Phillipa on September 13, 2006, at 21:21:02
i would be destroyed to find my husband had his own account and cards..
everything is in both..death, divorce, will..
if i am going down , so will he :)
Posted by ju§tyourlaugh on September 14, 2006, at 7:08:50
In reply to Re: cs.., posted by Phillipa on September 13, 2006, at 21:21:02
activating a credit card in my name today :)
Posted by ClearSkies on September 14, 2006, at 8:49:56
In reply to Re: cs.. » ClearSkies, posted by Phillipa on September 13, 2006, at 19:11:01
> So lets agree that our lives are different and forget it. It's not important enough to me to lose a friend. I'm sorry Clear Skies. I hope you can forgive me. Love Phillipa
Do you see a pattern here, Phillipa? I do, and I regret perpetuating it.
ClearSkies
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