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Posted by Lamdage22 on August 1, 2013, at 3:01:38
A pdoc you can trust doesnt exist. Just like there are no strippers that want anything but money.
Fact of life. Let them help you but do not trust them ever. SeriouslyJust like youd bang a stripper but not open your wallet a single time more often than you want.
Especially with that particular pdoc. She wants more control over me. Thats why i get the Seroquel so high. Less dopamine in my head... an advantage for her to dominate and control. Im going to take the Seroquel so high only when i have to and i will collect Parnate pills if i end up not wanting to take less than 60mg. Trust a pdoc.. yeah right. Yeah there is that one in a million strippers thats not in for the money but the odds are pretty slim you got one on your hands. Im a lot less stupid than she thinks and she doesnt like that.
You slap me in the face when i get weak again.
Posted by Lamdage22 on August 1, 2013, at 3:05:04
In reply to Whatever, im darn right to not trust that dr., posted by Lamdage22 on August 1, 2013, at 3:01:38
Into the f*ck*ng dumpster with excess Seroquel. Took 600 for the first time cuz the blood test comes up, woke up with suicide thoughts immediately after.
There is a higher possibility the earth is flat really than this sh*t to improve my life.
Posted by SLS on August 1, 2013, at 6:01:56
In reply to Re: Whatever, im darn right to not trust that dr., posted by Lamdage22 on August 1, 2013, at 3:05:04
> Into the f*ck*ng dumpster with excess Seroquel. Took 600 for the first time cuz the blood test comes up, woke up with suicide thoughts immediately after.
>
> There is a higher possibility the earth is flat really than this sh*t to improve my life.Can you describe your suicidal thoughts? Did you begin to make a plan?
I do not agree with everything you say regarding psychiatry and how your case is being managed by your doctors. However, if Seroquel is making you feel suicidal, you need to report this to your doctors immediately. You wouldn't be the first person to react badly to this drug.
1. Which antipsychotics have you tried so far?
- How did you react to each of these?
- If you had your choice, which one would you take?
2. Which mood stabilizers have you tried so far?
- lithium
- Lamictal
- Tegretol
- Trileptal
- Depakote
Posted by Willful on August 1, 2013, at 11:16:45
In reply to Re: Whatever, im darn right to not trust that dr., posted by Lamdage22 on August 1, 2013, at 3:05:04
Hey lamdage22,
can you remember when your feelings took such a dark turn about your pdoc? as recently as a few days ago, you were willing to give her the benefit of the doubt at least-- and certainly to believe, even if you had doubts, that she was basically concerned about your welfare.
You said, remember, that she would cut the dosage of seroquel if the negatives outweighed the benefits-- and that she was trying to help-- even if she is a somewhat more rigid type of person than you wished.
It sounds to me like you're panicking-- maybe because something specific upset or worried you-even some little thing-- and you're letting this mood of fear overwhelm, and shift your judgment perilously toward something that sounds self-destructive-- you need to trust people a little--. This is an issue I struggle with too- and I can attest that the more suspicion and distrust I feel, the worse things go for me. You sound a bit desperate in these last few posts. But--go over what's happened in the last 24 hours that could so have distressed you.
Also have you tried just taking deep breaths for a minute or two? Or-- well this sounds weird-- but if you put cold water, or an icepack on your face and forehead, it may help you physiologically damp down some of the physical aspect of the anxiety. I've done both these things and-- much to my surprise-- both of them have helped.
Maybe at the very least, no matter-- try not to act too impulsively-- From your recent posts-- you may not have to go down this road of total distrust-- which is not, absolutely not, going to help you.
give it a try,
Willful
Posted by Lamdage22 on August 1, 2013, at 11:23:30
In reply to Re: Whatever, im darn right to not trust that dr., posted by SLS on August 1, 2013, at 6:01:56
Hi Scott..
well its a total nobrainer.. im sure no one here is naive enough to think that desperate people like those that seek psychiatric help arent total psychopath-magnets. You really think all those people that work in the field only want your best? Then wow, you are naive.
> 1. Which antipsychotics have you tried so far?
> - How did you react to each of these?
Risperdal: Bitch t*ts, no effect whatsoever, weight gain.
Zyprexa: did what its supposed to do. Bad blood fats, insuline resistance problem, DEPRESSION, being a lazy f*ck.
Abilify : did what its supposed to do. Aktathisia/Restlessness (unbearable)
Zeldox: nightmaire
Latuda: no good either
Seroquel: Good effect at 300mg and tolerable side effects> - If you had your choice, which one would you take?
Either max. 350 Seroquel OR Abilify with something to defeat the Akathisia side effects.> 2. Which mood stabilizers have you tried so far?
> - lithium too fat. Heart palpitations
> - Lamictal too stupid, hair loss
> - Tegretol Makes you fat, doesnt it?
> - Trileptal Makes you fat, doesnt it?
> - Depakote Makes you fat, doesnt it?
I just need a genuine person to help me. Not the "devil in disguise". Maoi and Seroquel is alright. It just needs to be seen how much Maoi i can take with the particular Seroquel dosage that i can still tolerate.Add a bunch of Amino-Acids that where found to be good against schizophrenia, negative and positive symptoms, add the recommended lithium orotate dosage against bad thoughts..
And add social support and im good to go. Good enough to go.
Posted by Lamdage22 on August 1, 2013, at 11:31:26
In reply to Re: Whatever, im darn right to not trust that dr., posted by Lamdage22 on August 1, 2013, at 11:23:30
Who says that Parnate will compromise Seroquels antipsychotic and stabilizing effects anyway?
Its not a necessity. Its a possibility.
Posted by Lamdage22 on August 1, 2013, at 11:39:57
In reply to Re: Whatever, im darn right to not trust that dr., posted by Willful on August 1, 2013, at 11:16:45
> Maybe at the very least, no matter-- try not to act too impulsively-- From your recent posts-- you may not have to go down this road of total distrust-- which is not, absolutely not, going to help you.
This "acting impulsively" may as well save my life. You should be a little critical if you are among the biggest psychopath-magnets on earth. The mentally ill.I was just wrong about that doctor. She manipulates like crazy. "Give me your trust, but eat Seroquel as i say". Also i am dumbfounded that she is willing to give up the whole project of helping me just because i dont agree with one "treatment" (i would not call it therapy) option.
She is f*ck*ng ice cold and a bitch. She has put the best female friend i ever had on a 6 months "i cant leave my house because i have so much vertigo and im totally stupified" "treatment".
She told my friend that "there is nothing against your vertigo" (notice the god complex) AND to this day she never admitted it was the medication that did this to her.. which is NUTS.
Severe malpractice at best.. if not outright malicousness.Im not going down the road of distrust.
I kiss the frogs until i get a princess.Psychopaths are a bigger reality than you may think. And i dont have myself be victimized by those individuals more than once. Bastards.
I dont even want to discuss this topic anyway. You see me as the problem? Fine. Suit yourself. Let yourself be put on medication that makes you suicidal and spend the rest of your life in a locked psyche ward.
Posted by Lamdage22 on August 1, 2013, at 11:42:06
In reply to Re: Whatever, im darn right to not trust that dr., posted by Lamdage22 on August 1, 2013, at 11:39:57
Everyone is so afraid when somebody speaks the truth that everyone tries to avoid to face.. and they deem it to be pathological, that someone dares to say the truth.
Is that a road you wanna be on?
Posted by Lamdage22 on August 1, 2013, at 11:53:15
In reply to Re: Whatever, im darn right to not trust that dr., posted by Lamdage22 on August 1, 2013, at 11:42:06
Its a bunch of crap.. if you dont believe it, then well trust your psychopath doctors and make a pathology of every human or critical behavior.
If your doctors helped you so much thats great. Mine didnt and i seem to find one incompetent one after another.
Its so "in" to look for all the problems inside yourself and it makes you feel such a good person.. so loyal, so trusting, so i teeter on your every word my god.. It makes you feel so good and christian. And it makes you the psychopaths dearest object of obsession.
Whos to say that acting on an impulse is wrong? If its an impulse to not continue to be maltreated?
Whatever man, im not really keen to discuss that much.
Why am i so f*ck*ng angry on Seroquel if its so good for me? Ah yeah.. its all my illness. Right. Why am i so f*ck*ng stupid on Seroquel>? Its my impatience, guess what! Why do i eat unhealthy? Its my bad behavior, that i need to change.Do you see a pattern here? A pattern that leads into real or imagined illness? A pattern that is complete b*llsh*t?
A pattern that cant really be designed to make me healthy?
Wake the f*ck up.This is a bad place so im leaving it.
Posted by SLS on August 1, 2013, at 13:28:07
In reply to Re: Whatever, im darn right to not trust that dr., posted by Lamdage22 on August 1, 2013, at 11:53:15
Seroquel made me somewhat irritable. It might have been due to the desipramine-like properties of the drug's metabolite.
Parnate + desipramine brought on episodes of extreme rage. This was an expression of a dysphoric manic reaction to the medication.
Perhaps Nardil would be a better fit for your illness. I wouldn't know. It is less apt to produce impulsivity and aggression than Parnate is.
I think you should take a serious look at Trileptal. It doesn't usually cause weight gain, and is known to reduce impulsivity and aggression. Currently, you might be experiencing a mixed-state mania. I have seen Topamax work in a similar situation.
If your anger episodes are not at all related to your mental illness, then you might need to find an outlet for it. Exercise would probably help. Psychotherapy might be indicated.
You want to be better yesterday! Me, too!
Patience is a virtue. I'm not really much good at it myself. If you jump around from drug to drug and from dosage to dosage, you are likely to accidentally pass over an effective treatment.
- Scott
Posted by Lamdage22 on August 1, 2013, at 14:31:37
In reply to Re: Whatever, im darn right to not trust that dr. » Lamdage22, posted by SLS on August 1, 2013, at 13:28:07
I will consider what you said. Id really like to accidentally come across the sweet spot combo for me.
I do however think there is purpose in what and how i said it.
I wouldnt want to erase it.Telling the truth, as good as you know it is so liberating. Im making a party out of my last night here. This aint no mixed episode, this is life how i love it! I love to "defeat" what reveals itsself as lie to me.
Stop Pathologizing everything. We are troubled human beings who seek a way to improve the quality of our lives.
Whatever helps, man.Making a pathology out of everything is, to my mind is pretty pathological itsself.
Someone here told me im god and i am the truth, so listen up!
Hahaha. Whats life worth without ups and downs. Is there really such a thing as having a too good time? Jealous docs want you to believe maybe?
Ay, this guy is having a too good time, lets drug him!
Posted by Lamdage22 on August 1, 2013, at 14:39:50
In reply to Re: Whatever, im darn right to not trust that dr., posted by Lamdage22 on August 1, 2013, at 14:31:37
I just like to play man.. who do those fools think they are to tell me thats bad?
They tell me the best way to live? How would they know. With my oh so pathological impulsitivity i made a killing on real estate.
I dont even need to explain myself. Righteousness is with me most of the time and i dont wanna take pills to "not pollute the world with something true" or whatever. These pathological liars go on and on, no one stops them. And we need all the pills to make our poor unempowered selves shut up about whats good and right?
This is some serious mind control business and i wont have my mind controlled by anyone.. Especially if its for the worse.
Idk what im doing here.
Posted by Lamdage22 on August 1, 2013, at 14:41:40
In reply to Re: Whatever, im darn right to not trust that dr., posted by Lamdage22 on August 1, 2013, at 14:39:50
If you wouldnt see everything as pathological you would call it intuition. I sense the lie. I sense predators. I sense a bad situation. And probably that already saved my *ss. So please back off.
Posted by SLS on August 1, 2013, at 15:35:27
In reply to Re: Whatever, im darn right to not trust that dr., posted by Lamdage22 on August 1, 2013, at 14:41:40
> If you wouldnt see everything as pathological you would call it intuition. I sense the lie. I sense predators. I sense a bad situation. And probably that already saved my *ss. So please back off.
I am concerned that you are decompensating into a psychotic mania and/or schizoid psychosis. It is good that you are in the hospital.
It is possible that you will view my statements here as being some sort of accusation that is meant to restrain you from being your true self and deny you your freedom to help the world. Perhaps you think that I could not possibly fathom your intellectual and creative gifts. If you actually believe these things, then you really do need to slow down and do some reality testing.
If you do not work with your doctors, you might find yourself in an uncomfortable situation. They will probably decide to discontinue the Parnate. This is probably best at this point.
This post is really going to piss you off.
I want to see you safe. I want to see you well.
- Scott
Posted by Willful on August 1, 2013, at 16:02:09
In reply to Re: Whatever, im darn right to not trust that dr., posted by Lamdage22 on August 1, 2013, at 11:53:15
Hi
I'm sorry if my post was not helpful.
I was just suggesting a few things that worked for me. If whatever I said made you more frustrated, I regret that. It wasn't my intention.
Willful
Posted by Phillipa on August 1, 2013, at 17:05:10
In reply to Re: Whatever, im darn right to not trust that dr., posted by Lamdage22 on August 1, 2013, at 14:41:40
Lamdage I was a psych Nurse & I feel that you could now just could be in the middle of an either manic or schizophrenic break. I am glad you are in the hospital as you are safe. I do recall you having been in the USA and went home wasn't it do to similar problems. I'm not sure. Could you refresh my memory? I'd love to see you get well. Phillipa
Posted by Lamdage22 on August 3, 2013, at 5:52:29
In reply to Re: Whatever, im darn right to not trust that dr. » Lamdage22, posted by Phillipa on August 1, 2013, at 17:05:10
Yeah.. Parnate makes me anxious as well.
I wish i could go back to the way i was before i took "advantage" of Psychiatry. Maybe not all the way back, but alot of it.
I still feel like i joined some kind of cult by going to that doctor and taking that drug Nardil and i do not feel there is any escape.
I want to go back to not giving too much of a sh*t anymore, really.
If i take antidepressants, i want to take on the whole world, which is nuts indeed and there is no reason for me to do that.Maybe i really do best on Seroquel only?
It really hurts to thing those thoughts, true or not. I am tormented by it to some degree. And all that started when i went to see the Psychiatrist.
Do you see how im a little bit pissed? That respected people in society tell me to do that and i feel like sh*t?
Posted by Lamdage22 on August 3, 2013, at 5:55:18
In reply to kk, posted by Lamdage22 on August 3, 2013, at 5:52:29
Would they ever admit that Psychiatry failed me?
That it didnt do me much good and just leave me alone?
Certainly not when i do too many more crazy med experiments...
Posted by Phillipa on August 3, 2013, at 20:17:39
In reply to Re: kk, posted by Lamdage22 on August 3, 2013, at 5:55:18
It must be very hard for you. Phillipa
Posted by Lamdage22 on August 4, 2013, at 6:57:51
In reply to Re: kk » Lamdage22, posted by Phillipa on August 3, 2013, at 20:17:39
> It must be very hard for you. Phillipa
It is.. and for the people who have to read my rants i guess.
Really really painful state of mind.
Posted by Phillipa on August 4, 2013, at 20:37:01
In reply to Re: kk, posted by Lamdage22 on August 4, 2013, at 6:57:51
Trying to help and understand. If I chose not to read your posts I would not. Phillipa
Posted by Lamdage22 on August 5, 2013, at 12:29:18
In reply to Re: kk » Lamdage22, posted by Phillipa on August 4, 2013, at 20:37:01
Okay..
i just dont get how there are no hospitals to let you see if you really are schizo.. by discontinuing your treatment long enough to see where your dopamine system is REALLY at.
They treat it like some sort of cancer that will kill you.
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