Posted by over 55 on July 6, 2006, at 16:46:21
In reply to Re: Please be civil » cubic_me, posted by gabmeister on July 5, 2006, at 8:23:52
Hi all,
What a journey huh!!! Gabmeister, you were one of the first to respond when I found this site and I can really relate to the "lashing out and biting those around". I hate myself for doing it and wonder if that is "really who I am" as I slip into that role way to easily. It is definitely not who I want to be, but I have ruined more than a few relationships with my "sharp tongue". I know there is a nice woman in there somewhere. A recent job eval said "I was the kindest person they had ever met", and I wondered if we knew the same person (ha ha).
I want to feel again too, but then it gets scary as I feel very stong emotions about things and have to put a harness on my mouth. I don't want to be mealy mouthed, but I don't want to be so abrasive in my presentation. It is all a "work in progress", I guess.
It is so good to hear from other people who are getting through this. I have been completely off Effexor for 10 days now after taking a month to withdraw from 225 mg a day for 5 years. In reading other posts I feel very fortunate to have made it with minimal problems. I had 20 mg of Prozac to help with the weaning and am still taking 20mg every other day, until I feel I can go it alone. I won't turn into a totally uncontrolled witch so will remain on the Prozac if I need to. When I look at the older female relatives in my family they are really not very nice people to be around; very sharp tongued etc. Most suffer from depression and have been medicated/hospitalized at times in their lives. I hope that is not my legacy. I want to find a better way to handle things than be like a zombie. I just want to be healthy again.
Thanks to everyone who has offered and provided support to me (and others) on this site. It was a life-saver to say the least.
poster:over 55
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