Posted by Deneb on December 29, 2005, at 14:39:45
In reply to Well, maybe I'm a'gonna raise my voice a bit » Deneb, posted by Racer on December 29, 2005, at 5:09:22
> But, Deneb, why would you manipulate your pdoc? You're going to see him for help, which he can't give you unless you're honest with him. Think on that one, 'K?
I think maybe it is because I don't trust them, well, pdoc2 at least. I'm also very embarrassed to see pdoc1 again on Jan30th. I don't want to disappoint her by taking meds.
> > No, but have I improved dramatically *on* meds?
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> YES! When was the last time you were blocked? That's a good sign that the meds ARE helping you. Dramatically.If that's the case, I can only conclude that it was the higher dose of Risperdal that did it. I remember being quite distressed even on Celexa. I don't know about the Wellbutrin yet. It's like a wildcard.
> > It tells me that I don’t think too highly of p-docs.
> >
> > *I* don’t think most know what they are doing.
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> I wonder, actually, if that's an excuse. They're telling you something you don't want to hear, so you're devaluing them? Can you go to your next appointment with an open mind?Not one is telling me I need to be on meds, well, except for the Celexa maybe... I just don't think they know what they are doing. I respect pdoc1 more, so I will have a better time I hope when I see her on Jan 30th.
> > I want to stop them mostly because I’m ashamed to be on them and because I really don’t think I need them.. It’s not because of side effects. I have never had problems with that.
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> OK, this sounds like the crux of the matter -- you're ashamed of taking them. Think about that, Deneb. Think about it hard. Not taking a psychotropic medication that improves your condition and your quality of life simply because you're ashamed of taking it is -- well, you know the adjective that I'm thinking of, right?The thing is, I'm unsure as it whether or not they really do improve my life.
Since people here seem really adamant that I continue my meds, I will give it try. They don't seem to harm me, so what the heck.
Deneb
Thanks Racer for your clear thinking
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