Posted by partlycloudy on November 1, 2004, at 15:14:29
In reply to vwoolfe - how are you?, posted by partlycloudy on October 31, 2004, at 23:06:59
yesterday i was working in the kitchen. my husband was enjoying a glass of wine. i became quite upset. how come you get to unwind with a glass of wine and i get to stay cranked up? i want a glass too. he said, um, how old are you again? you can do what you want. so i had a glass. that's all.
until we went to sleep. i couldn't settle down. came down to post things no one wants to read and downed sherry (yuck). woke up today feeling pretty awful. it makes my anxiety so much worse, and now i have a panic attack too. i can't drink like a regular person. i'm not a regular person. i'm a drunk whose medications make it all the worse if i try to drink. the anger i felt at being kept out and not having a chemical way to unwind really cranked me up. what am i doing?