Posted by alexandra_k on September 19, 2020, at 19:48:06
In reply to Re: exponential population growth, posted by alexandra_k on September 19, 2020, at 19:34:34
And the pay-out I got...
I have gotten various things at various points in time...
One I can talk about was when Grandfather Died. He left $1,000 for each and every Grandkid.
I was fairly young when that happened. Maybe I was 11 or 12? I was still living at home with Mum.
I remember her being like 'ooh, there's money for you. What are you going to spend it on?'
Then all of the things that I 'nagged' (her words) her for... Were things that I could purchase myself.
I mean, she still 'approved' before I spent any of it. Because I was under 18 or 20 or whatever. So I needed her consent. I remember I got a $120 decent quality eventing horse riding helmet. Because I only had a second hand, likely 20 years old dressage helmet that Mother managed to find from a second hand shop for $2... I got a couple pairs of jodhpurs and some rubber high top boots. That was around $300. What did I spend the rest of it on... I don't know... I imagine I probably made a couple 'poor choices' that MOther would have agreed to. Sometiems she does that. A sort of a gloating about it. LIke he justifyes her hoarding money because I don't know what to do with it...
And of course now I think... Now I think... That she was supposed to encourage me to save it. It was $1,000 that I didn't actually need (and really it was her job to buy clothes and things like that for me and she could have afforded it but she was hoarding money for herself instead)... I should have been required by her to put it into an investment (compounding interest) or even bonus bonds account until I came of age, at least. So I could have seen for myself the effects of compounding interest. Or at least one year delay. At least a good talk about larger items like a car?? I don't know...
But she didn't.
And that's her. My Mother.
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SHe said I could have $10,000 to buy a motorcycle. And that's it. That's all. That's all I'm getting.
That was when my motorcycle died and I was talking to her about costs for School. About costs of being registered to practice as a Doctor in the US. The thousands of dollars of fees to take step 1 and step 2 clinical skills and so on...
She tries to get me to spend $10,000 on a motorcycle...
So that in 12 months when I'm crying to her that I can't afford a new chain and it needs new chain and sprokets that I couldn't afford to get the maintaiense done on it at 3 months and 6 months and 9 months... Or I tried to do it myself and the wheel malalignment needs I need new tires...
SO the bike is off road because I can't afford to get it to warrant...
ANd now I don't get to be registered to pratice medicien either...
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I can see her face...
Gloating.
Silly girl. Silly ideas in her head.
See why I didn't give her any money to save.
See why it was no point giving her 50 cents a week?
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Silly girl.
Just comply.
Just comply.
People are getting fat off the money they get for 'looking after' you.
Fat like me.
Fat like the hospitals.
Fat like the disability people.
Fatty fat fat fat.
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This is it... Isn't it...
If they take me and I work well I won't have to come back.
It isn't 'stolen generation' when there's endless documentation of ongoing and constant systemic and systematic abuse.
There's nothing here.
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