Posted by alexandra_k on August 1, 2016, at 6:09:41
In reply to Re: Out of the city, posted by rjlockhart37 on July 24, 2016, at 20:30:11
I've been going to a bunch of talks by professors / lectures etc, too... Really nice talks. I've felt connected to them... Like I could engage. Relate. Like I had something to contribute to them... To help make them better, to develop them etc... That has felt really nice.
I feel like... Some of them have been speaking to me, too...
When I first arrived here the message was basically that I was pretty delusional if I thought med was still in the picture... A couple weeks later... After some people got to know me a bit... I feel like the message / tune has changed. I think it really had changed. I know I need to work hard... But I feel like people are behind me, a bit. Like our interests might naturally co-incide... Like it is still on the cards... Just have to work really very hard and see what happens.
I have been wondering a lot about what went wrong, before. About whether it was just doubt in my ability to do science or about whether it was more than that (e.g., my actual health record). A bunch of stuff has happened with health informatics etc... People are now saying... If it isn't part of the online health record (in this country) it didn't happen. Basically....
None of the stuff that happened with me in NZ happened. From that pov. The best record there is of it is... Babble. My record, in other words.
My record.
What I've admitted to.
What I've described (which may or may not reflect actual events - it's opinionated, that's for sure).
I've... Been real here. For better or worse. I've been me. All of me. As much of all of me as I could possibly have be. Haha. That's true. For reals. If there's a different way of me being me... I surely haven't thought of it. Haha. I couldn't be any different me I just... Can't. Haha. So there. It... doesn't worry me. My Babble history. What worries me is that portions... Parts... Might be taken out of context. But what is reassuring to me is... The context. The context is there. It is every bit as real. Every bit as recorded. Anyone who wasn't an idiot... Would see that. Would take some of that into account. Would't... Judge me. Particularly harshly. Irrevokably. I'm genuinely not a bad person.It's okay.
I suppose... I always knew that.
Thank you Dr Bob. For getting in there... Early enough... To help some people. Before the whole thing got perverted really. Because most people... MOst people.. Don't even want health care. To be honest. And that wouldn't a problme... Except insofar as they seem determined that nobody else should have it either.. And / or we should rename this other worthless thning that they value 'healthcare' and just do a bait and switch..
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