Posted by alexandra_k on February 8, 2014, at 0:36:09
In reply to Re: oops, i did it again, posted by alexandra_k on February 8, 2014, at 0:22:56
the foundations coordinator person has given me...
precisely the kind of reception i feared i'd get from my medicine interview. i mean, really. the reasons i had for being concerned about disclosing dx / disability to them, are because i am anxious to avoid precisely the kind of reaction that the disclosure invoked in her.
the discrimination i feel i may be subjected to on disclosure is precisely the discrimination that i feel she subjected me to.
the sort of mean-spirited attempt to undermine... the viewing me (hostile) as 'other' as... a threat? as... someone to undermine at all costs...
is precisely what i was concerned about.
in seeing it in her... i suppose i get to see what (if in fact anything) i can do about it. i can write up my concerns... about lack of professionalism for the most part... and see what happens. see how she responds to what i write, at the very least.
with her... i genuinely feel that there is stupidity that is preventing comprehension. i don't expect that i would find that over in medicine. i think there is some kind of... defensiveness, too. because i said about how i was expected to become an english teacher and about how that limited opportunities for me... and well... it turns out that she basically is an english teacher. so now the dynamic makes sense to me. she feels affronted that i attacked english teaching as a profession (aka: her personally) by saying that i didn't want to be one. so now i need to suck up her *ss about what a wonderful job she has got and about how so very sad i am that she (special snowflake that she is) doesn't get to teach me english. because (clearly) she has so very much to teach me. not. which is... precisely her point. she was like 'why are you applying to study stuff you could teach'. and i was like 'i'm not applying to study THOSE CLASSES'. ffs. if only she were literate our conversations might go much better...
anyway... i most certainly don't need her. which was precisely my point. and is precisely why she doesn't think that it is at all in her interests to grant me a place (no - that would be about my and other peoples interests - and what is in that for her???)
i need not go there.
i'll lay a proper complaint of unprofessionalim on Monday...
I... really and truly don't anticipate that i would encounter anything of the kind in a medical interview.
which is what makes that interesting / viable for me.
unlike foundations.
unlike physiotherapy.
unlike personal training.unlike... insert whatever field you like where people are too busy pumping themselves up / pulling other people down to do their f*ck*ng job.
most of the world...
if a f*ck*ng horrible place. for real. i... i do not feel happy here yet.
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