Posted by alexandra_k on November 24, 2013, at 2:24:36
In reply to actually that's not fair..., posted by alexandra_k on November 20, 2013, at 23:55:45
So things are good.
But I've been feeling this... Gnawing. I think it is a combination of overheating and... I'm not sure.
I've been reading... Getting further into Organic Chemistry. Functional groups. Double and triple carbon bonds. The stuff is... Making more sense the more I read it / think over it. I really do think... I'll be alright. Have found some more blogs etc and most people who worked hard but didn't ace it... Well, their retrospective analysis was that they wasted a lot of time doing silly things. Sleeping in lectures. Missing lectures. Copying their notes verbatim from print to computer or vice versa. Not filling in their lab manual before labs (so not knowing what they were supposed to be doing). I... Know not to make those mistakes.
They run 2 streams of lectures. So you can pick whether you will have lectures in the morning or lectures in the afternoon. But then laboratory / tutorial times need to go into the timetable as well, so I suspect they will take up the rest of the day, really. It is strange to me how many contact hours there are. Need to remind myself that I won't need to be working on essays, though, or reading lots of articles / books. Textbooks are dense, though, not that anybody is really expected to read them anymore... But... Ur... Well... That is how I learn, basically. They are dense for a reason. They fill out the lecture notes / provide a different voice / dialogue for the lecturer.
I think I'll take morning lectures - even though I'm not a morning person. I know how things will get, already... Cold and tired and sick and miserable... But you can still take that to bed and - study with it... I think I'll be more likely to study in the afternoons / evenings than I would be likely to in the mornings. In the mornings... It would be too tempting to snooze half the day away. 8am organic chemistry it is.
I found a wonderful book: "Evolution in four dimensions". How did I not read that before? Now I know a little of what epigenetics are all about... Pretty sure I should have known that already.
I need to... Just finish my thesis as best I can. I just... I cringe. In all honesty, I simply don't feel qualified to say anything of any value whatsoever. And I cringe at the thought of showing my supervisor anything at all. 2 weeks to conference. I need to get him something before that.
I hope... Dammit... I need to finish this. I am scared I won't get into med. I'm trying to get into the spirit of being happy doing bio-medical science. I think I'm finding the spirit on that. But I need to finish this. Dammit. I got an offer for BHsc (which I've decided I really don't want). Hopefully... When I get an offer of BSc BioMed then things will kick off... LIke how my Masters Thesis got written when I had the security of knowing exactly where I was going next.
Sigh.
Things are good. What is wrong with me?
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