Posted by Angela2 on October 26, 2013, at 15:01:10
This is kind of embarrassing to admit, but I'm just sitting here, eating candy. I'm not sure if that's normal or not. lol. But anyway, I haven't had a job in like 2 months now. Before that, I had a job for 3 years. But I quit. Because things got weird. And boring . and stressful, and I guess I'd rather not talk about it.
I'm supposed to be looking for another job. But, I'm not, really. I got a call back from a job I sent in a resume to, and we had been playing telephone tag, until, I just didn't call her back. I don't know why I don't want another job right now.
But I get lonely and bored a lot on my own. I have started taking an art class. And I signed up for an online writing class (I was taking an url writing class, but it didn't really work out atm).
Then there's my family. Mainly my extended family. They want me to have a job. I think they want me to be successful. But my mom blows it all out of proportion. We are having a get together next weekend, and she's acting like it would be embarrassing to me if I went because they'll be asking me about myself. My mom cares a lot about what other people think. And she herself is a negative gossip (about other people in the family, not about me).
I guess it just sucks doing this all on my own. People want me to be successful, but they don't want to be supportive. At least that's how it feels. Maybe I shouldn't care what they think.
I do have a therapist. And I am doing my best. I just went for a walk. I am going to try and go to church tomorrow.
I dunno.. If anyone has anything supportive to say, I would appreciate it so much. Thanks.
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