Posted by SLS on August 1, 2013, at 1:35:43
In reply to lost years, posted by rjlockhart37 on July 31, 2013, at 22:44:51
> i was watching a show just a couple of mintues ago...they had a guy sitting down with a young guy, and that heart to heart people sometimes tell young people to talk about there problems, mainly teenagers with problems. And looking back, i really went through a horrible period of both people not understanding me, i had no one, my brother once and a while would do it with me, but it wasnt real, if people did care they would stick with the person, i've also had people tell me if i needed to talk about issues, they leave, disregard anything they said about caring or support, so thats why mainly i've become the person i am today, learn how do it one my own, and right now, not much to boast about, other than going back to skool in the fall, and considering doing martial arts......leave my past behind...like a file, the pages are put away, outdated....that's why im encouraging don't let the past stay with the present....
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> childhood memories, my worst memory... is being the target for people to make fun and i would always have to run to one of the hotshots girlfriend to tell them to be nice to me. That is WORST memory ever, i still feel that moment when im deflated....i still feel that terrible feeling when im in a social event of people who are loud, have to act like im one of them....
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> but still that makes me want to help other young people iwth problems, eve though i still am holding on to bad memories of rejection, im still alive....so thats all that counts...and that can make more able to understand in similar situations, and give advice and support...
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> thanks for readingThe past is often a good source of lessons to be learned for living a better life in the present and moving forward into the future. You are doing a good job with this. I am going through something similar to what you describe, but I need more time to understand my past as it relates to my present before I can create a healthier future. For now, I am rather stuck, and I find myself haunted by my past. I am only now beginning to recognize the magnitude of loss. This is occurring because I am feeling better and have more cognitive resources with which to understand things. However, my thoughts are of a catastrophic nature, and my frame of reference is cosmic. It is somewhat existential. I work hard to avoid allowing derealization to emerge. For now, I am less resistant to thoughts of suicide. There is much for me to process psychologically and emotionally. I could probably use some counseling to help me with this. If money were not an issue, I would seek out a psychotherapist now rather than later.
- Scott
Some see things as they are and ask why.
I dream of things that never were and ask why not.- George Bernard Shaw
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