Posted by Jay_Original1 on February 27, 2013, at 17:28:10
In reply to My Mom passed on tonighta part of me died with her, posted by Jay_Original1 on February 20, 2013, at 1:12:27
"Sweet Chariot...swing low...come for me."
I really don't know what to say..but thank you to all for your kind and compassionate words. I think...no, I KNOW..that Chariot has taken my Mom away to someplace very special. But she has come home...she is now on the mantle above the fireplace. Very teaful the last few days...thought I was just going to collapse. Yet, I feel her presence...and she always had a STRONG presence. Part of her is my smile...and part of her is my tears. I had to write her obituary last week. I am nowhere NEAR even thinking of emptying her room...her clothes...her jewlery.
"Where did you go? Can I follow?
Because the distance is hard to swallow...And if I promise an ocean
Would you care for the notion of
Staying here and resting your weary head
And would you come back and see me, or
Angel am I dreaming because
Heaven knows that I'll miss you so
And that's a fact
Look now where I'm at
I miss you so
Look now where I'm at
I can't let go...I do very much believe in forever...so I don't think I have to let her go.
"You can never break the chain...life is a power that remains.."
I thought we should celebrate her life, somehow. A nice poetry reading by a fire....but my own sister thinks of me in disgust. I am more than willing to forgive, move on in peace. But, sister is always angry, dis-satisfied, unless you live up to her yuppie lifestyle. I wanted to do it for my Mom. Find and embrace peace and forgiveness. I know in social work, forgiveness is one of the most things, because it takes all of that weight away..and you feel so much more..everything.
~Jay
Dx: Bipolar II with dysphoric mania
Current Rx: 300mgs Zoloft, 150mg of Effexor XR, 4mg's of clonazepam, 5mg's Risperdal, 300mg of Lyrica, 12mg's of Melatonin, 0.4mg's of Clonidine & Androgel.
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