Posted by sleepygirl2 on June 12, 2012, at 17:21:19
I'm not sure why this is a question.
What do I have to mention?
I sort of feel like I am "in trouble" with my T and Pdoc.
I mean it's nice that they care, but I'm not really interested in making a big deal out of this.
My mood will stay the same.
I'll be 'out of it' for a while, and then I'll have to deal with reality again. Reality might really bite. In fact I know it will.
So, this is me facing reality, and it really sucks.So, because I am an *ssh*l*, I called my t and told him that I'd been smoking, and that I am terrified to tell Pdoc.
and I'm thinking... God damn it, I'm an adult, wtf?
Why am I confessing this sh*t like there's something wrong with it. The problem, you see, is that I like smoking it whenever possible. Other things interfere.I got hit pretty hard a few weeks ago. I got a surge of anxiety, and it was really uncomfortable, for a little while, I was almost agitated. I didn't know what to do with myself.
I dislike taking meds, but I took extra seroquel because I was so uncomfortable, and I needed to put a lid on it.
I was trying to get through it. I was so uncomfortable though.
This really bothers me. Why am I so anxious?? geez...
It can be so debilitating. I just know that I can't be high all of the time?? why not? methinks?
I guess anything is possible. You never really feel anxious because you just don't give a f*ck.
On the other hand, you have different fingers.
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