Posted by Christ_empowered on October 12, 2011, at 0:20:15
In reply to Re: Mental Patient Blues » Christ_empowered, posted by Phillipa on October 11, 2011, at 17:51:33
I don't know what my diagnosis is anymore, honestly. If I had to guess, I'd say schizoaffective, manic type. I'm on 200 Lamictal and 15 Abilify. To be fair, she didn't *push* the clozapine, she just mentioned it and also said that a bunch of new medications had recently come out that we could try.
It just sucks. A lot (most, actually) of the voices I hear are related to having been an outcast, having people (including "professionals") talk about me and spread rumors for years. Then the mistreatment I endured as a patient...
When she mentioned clozapine, I got scared. I asked her if I could just stick with my the voices as they are and try to pick up the slack with therapy. Honestly, I was hoping for an antidepressant. When I was on Celexa, the voices went away for a while and I felt better. Now that I'm on a lower dose of the Abilify, I thought I could take Celexa or something like it w/o feeling too drugged up or tranquilized. No such luck. She said antidepressants can make voices worse, so its either abilify+lamictal or some other antipsychotic (I hope to God not clozapine) plus lamictal.
I'm not "treatment-resistant" is the thing. I have lingering auditory hallucinations because of all the stress I've endured. Its not as if everything was going a-OK and then one day I started hearing voices. These voices occur for a reason, and shrinks are a big part of the problem.
Sorry to vent and ramble. I'm just frustrated.
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