Posted by Christ_empowered on August 10, 2011, at 13:44:47
I guess this could've gone on the medication board, but there's more involved here than taking/not taking pills, so I'll post it here.
I'm tired of feeling tranquilized and slowed down. I'm tired of not having a job or many friends and not caring. I'm tired of gaining weight and not caring. Abilify is "effective" in the sense that it tranquilizes the hell out of my mania and agitation, but I don't think its going to be helpful in actually getting a life together.
I remember being burned out, prematurely aged, and absolutely despised in my small town several years ago. Psychiatry helped get me to that point. I remember overhearing a former shrink talking about my confidential information at a local bar. I remember a psychiatrist driving by my parents house, staring me down, and making asinine comments.
I feel as if psychiatry has already taken too much from me. I can't blame the profession too much--when I was young and naive, I really *believed* psychiatry was the answer--but I do need to know when to say when.
I'm healthy again. Somehow, I became reasonably intelligent again (a shrink at a mental hospital called this "transcendent intelligence"). People leave me alone most of the time. I think maybe its time to say good-bye to the profession that's proven to be harsh, judgmental, expensive, and anything but "professional."
I do, of course, reserve the right to change my mind.
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