Posted by Lifeiswhat on April 1, 2011, at 4:24:15
I got married very young had a son worked on an off had a daughter after i had her i wanted more for my family i started working alot! 100 to 120 hours every 2 weeks as a grave yard caregiver at a nursing home for alzhimers stage 1 to 4. My husband was the main caregiver for the kids he became very posesive and controling he would time me and if i was late he would be very mean he never hit me but he would be mean to the children he wouldnt bath them or feed them properly i would fight with him every day he would leave as soon as got home so i couldnt sleep. I didnt know what to do i just kept pushing on trying to over come everything thinking that things would get better with time it didnt. One night we had been argueing i dont even remember why now but we went out to get food then went home i didnt eat right away i layed down he layed beside me. I remember the baby crying he got up and very soon after the baby was silent i didnt know what had happend he went out of the room i turned over to see a pillow over my 6 month old daughters head she face down i went over to her i checked her and everything seemed fine i thought about yelling at him but i was very tired and like i said we fought alot. So i ate a little and went to sleep later my husband came in the room and woke me up told me something was wrong with the baby she was very limp and her eyes were rolled in the back of her head i called 911 she passed away the next day. They determined it to be by suffication 3 months later. Cps removed my son i didnt even think about the pillow at first at the hospital you know my head was just spinning. They did not arrest my husband when i made him go to the police station and confess about the pillow i told him i did not want him in my house he said he was going to leave the country i didnt care the police took to long. I told the police he was going to leave they new he was not a citizen of this country at that time and they did not tell him not to leave! I took him to the gray hound station and said goodbye about a month later they put out a warrent and then they wanted to act like everything was my fault they questioned me so many times and i took a lie detector they told me i failed but would let me see it or tell me what questions i failed they were talking to my family and turned them all againts me my husband has not been caught i dont think theyll ever find him i live with all of this every day i have so many regrets i know i should have been a more protective mother but how do you not trust the one you have commited to spend the rest of your life with the father of your children the one person that youve been with for 5 years. I can never have children again they will take them i am young and my whole life is over my whole family is gone. how to you just wake up one day with everyone you ever cared about gone.
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