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My semi yearly 'hello'

Posted by Cass on December 27, 2010, at 0:58:58

Hi everyone,
It seems I only post here a couple times a year, and only when I'm depressed or anxious or stressed. Right now, I'm all of these. My business partner/friend isn't acting like much of a friend. I don't feel like I can trust him anymore. We lost a lot of money on a business deal when the economy crashed which was bad enough, but now he's being cut-throat with me. It's hard to lose a friend. I've been upset with him. He knows every personal thing about me, my social security number, DL number, and I hope he doesn't misuse any of that info. I'm also missing my husband a lot. I miss having someone around who loves me a lot. He died this time of year, so this time of year is especially difficult to me. I've never been fond of the holiday season anyways. They were especially painful times growing up. I feel very insecure, very angry and very alone. Don't get me wrong, I have wonderful friends, but they mostly have spouses/partners and kids. They are busier than I am. I always longed to have a supportive family. I had my husband, but now he's gone. My life really fell apart when he died. I know I've been really emotionally needy since then. Not that I was ever a pillar of strength. I recently went on an online dating site. I'm finding I don't have much motivation to message the men back. I'm not sure I'm ready for a relationship after all. Historically, throughout my life, it's taken me a long time to overcome trauma. I'm extremely sensitive, and painful experiences effect me very deeply. I don't process them quickly. Sometimes I go into shock or denial, then very slowly over time I start to deal with the pain. I'm tired. My whole life has been focused mostly on recovering from trauma. I feel I have very little to offer anyone or the world.


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