Posted by TexasChic on December 12, 2009, at 11:22:12
I just need to rant to get this out of my system, and I don't feel comfortable sharing these insecurities on Facebook.
I have been working part time and collecting unemployment for several months now, and UE has been absolutely essential to my getting by. My next time to apply for my payment is tomorrow, and I went online to check into it, and it said my claim had expired! I still have benefits left, but I have to go through the application process all over again, which of course takes forever! I went ahead and filled everything out, but I'm afraid I may have done it wrong, which will cause it to take even longer. (It was difficult to know if they wanted the info from my last full time job or my current part time one, and of course there's no one to ask on the weekend). So to make a long story short, the money I was relying on to buy my nephew xmas gifts isn't going to be there! And I usually buy a substantial part because his parent don't have much money. And to top it all off, I don't know if things will be straightened out in time for next month's rent and bills either!
On the good side, I have an interview Monday with a high profile shipping company. Its kind of a shift leader position in one of their retail stores, and it would probably pay about what I'm making now with UE, so I wouldn't have to depend on that anymore. Plus they have good benefits and promote from within. I also have another interview with another store in the same company on Wed, but its for an entry level customer service job which would pay about what I'm making now at my part time job, but it would be full time with benefits, and I would still have the benefit that they promote from within. So it would be a good foot in the door, but I would still need the supplement from UE to get by.
Sooooo, I'm just freaking out because I don't know what's going to happen, and I'm so sick of not having a job or being able to support myself, and never having any money!!!! To top it all off my cold weather suit is too tight on me because I'm a fat cow so I have to go buy a new one this weekend. I'm going to Goodwill first, then try Ross or something if they don't have anything. I could just wear some nice clothes, which I'm considering, but if ever I needed to make a good impression on an interview, its now, and I would really like to have a suit! But I hate to spend any of my meager funds since I need to save every cent just in case I need it for rent at the end of the month.
So !@#$% !!!! That's me screaming and cursing in frustration! I know things will probably eventually work themselves out - at least, they usually do. But I hate the uncertainty of my current situation! Thanks for listening to me rant.
-T
poster:TexasChic
thread:928981
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