Posted by hyperfocus on July 28, 2009, at 21:39:15
In reply to 3 more chances doc and that's it / trigger, posted by Phil on July 28, 2009, at 17:47:45
Don't have much to offer except that other people too experience the chronic pain and grief over lost things that long-term chronic mental illness causes. A lot of times I ask myself why me and not anybody else has to go through all this.
I feel the same way you do a lot of days. I'm rational about it: X years of suffering > Y years of being well. With no end in sight. Seems like the rational thing to do.
Ok you're rational. But these are also rational things:
1. There's a difference between not feeling pain and not feeling anything. What you want is to accomplish the former by the latter but they're not compatible.
2. What difference does 3 chances make compared to 5 or 50 or 300? When you're gone will any of these numbers matter?
3. We're all heading there. So what difference does it make if we go now or a hundred years from now?
Don't mean to lecture you and not gonnna tell you whether what you want to do is right or wrong, just want to point out that it's not rational.
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