Posted by TexasChic on October 24, 2008, at 21:22:38
In reply to Re: Still nothing » TexasChic, posted by Kath on October 24, 2008, at 20:25:47
The guy I spoke with (I'll call him 'C') told me the choice would already be made if it were up to him. It wasn't 'real' clear, but I got the idea he meant he would have gone with me. He said the higher ups tend to drag their feet though. In fact, I had to hang out a couple of hours in order to meet with the higher up guy after my interview with C. Luckily, I was very close to where my bro lived so I went and visited with him. He seems to be doing well.
I miss my nephew. Its been a while since I've seen him, and even longer since he's spent the night with me. My sister said he's been talking about wanting to see me. If I got the new job, I would be much closer to my family. I've found that although its better in some ways for me to be away from them, ultimately its my decision whether or not I let them take advantage of me. And it ends up only making it harder on me when I'm farther, because I'm always the one who has to do the traveling.
So we'll see how it goes. I'll be able to tolerate the weekend by researching more jobs. As hopeless as it sometimes seems, this is a big metropolitan area and there are a lot of places to be employed. Its a matter of taking the initiative to seek them out. I haven't even contacted the people my previous employer referred me to, so that would be a start.
Its easy to get down about this, but I'm trying very hard to keep a positive attitude. It helps that I got a refill on my meds, I'd been skimping to get by, and I can tell the difference. Although, I can't remember if I already said this or not, but when I told my bro about the problem with the shaking, he said, "Oh, you mean from the Prozac?" I was like, "What?" He said it caused him to shake all the time. I've been taking it for so long, mainly because its the only thing that keeps me from falling into that black pit of despair (I've had downright horrible experiences with trying something different), that I hadn't thought about the fact that it could be causing the shaking. I knew the Wellbutrin causes me to shake enough to notice it myself, but apparently with just the Prozac I don't know I'm doing it (if that is in fact what is causing it). I've been doing without Wellbutrin for a while now. It does help lift me up, but if finances cause me to choose, then Prozac is the one I'll go with. It was around $50 for 15 days of 80 mg worth, which of course I will spread out to 40 mg a day. That's enough to keep me sane.You'd think generic would be cheaper.
Anyway, I feel like I'm rambling, so I'll go for now. Thanks for the support everyone! I'm hanging in there for now.
-T
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