Posted by Jay_Bravest_Face on July 19, 2008, at 23:40:51
In reply to Why do people persevere?, posted by Dinah on July 16, 2008, at 23:46:04
Well, I dont mean to sound all Darwin-esque here, but I think a combination of genetic and personal skills make the answer. Before I got dxd with depression, I could do almost anything. I was a 19 year old who had a weight problem of being 6 foot 240 lbs. I said enough. So, I would go for 3 hour walks in the middle of snowstorms, every single night, for months on end, restrict my calories, and I got down to 145lbs. Now, Its all rebounded on me since starting psych meds, but I have a *major* problem with hormones, with testosterone. My doc is quite sure that once we get the testosterone up, my weight will come down a fair bit. But, I just started over the last week. I had a testosterone reading of 5. The normal reading is between 14-3014 still being at the lowest level. If I could get in the high 20s, I could be a lean, rockin machine, with lots of nice libido again. (ohhh..how I miss that. :(
So, I dont know, its a combo of many factors. I was told I was dumb as a kid, yet I have a university education with an A average, a very good job. The meds help with my learning disability (had it since birth), but I usually write others off AS THE ONES WHO have a disabilitylol. There is a beautiful song by the band Yes called Without Hope (You Cannot Start The Day), and it is soooooo true. Little bits of something, I try to grab on to tiny little pieces just to make a wee bit of some hope each day, no matter how hopeless I feel.
Well, from this cornerthats my verbal hot air..lol