Posted by fayeroe on July 11, 2008, at 8:19:41
In reply to Re: I didn't ask to be bipolar » fayeroe, posted by obsidian on July 10, 2008, at 22:49:09
> I once cried for about an hour after hearing a couple of songs in a class I had in college
> it wasn't pretty, it was the sobbing kind
> and everytime I thought it stopped, it started again
> the thing is, I had to leave the class, hide in the bathroom, and not come back until the whole thing was over and everyone had left
> a couple of friends waited for me though. It was really a lot of fun (NOT) trying to explain why I was a hysterical mess.
> f*ck*ng emotions
> I'm not bipolar, but I do know what it's like to have emotions that are out of control
> I'm sorry you're having a hard time
> take good care of yourself
some of it was situational in that the Pdoc's office messed up and i had to jump into truck and drive 15+miles down there to get stuff.
Bob Seger started singing "The Final Scene" and about 50 years of living hit me and i was all over the map. past relationships, middle relationships, no relationship now, no money, no job (part-time one) and i am just totally sick of having my life turned upside down because i'm fr*gg*ng nuts.
moving to Texas is the best thing that i could have done for the "me" that needed to get out of the bible belt of Oklahoma, but the friend situation is so hopeless here. very small town...biggest industry is the prison and hell, i work there and i'd be better off making friends with a felon than i would be another employee....(corrupt and all that goes with it)
i didn't mean to just go off on this.....just got up and having my second cup of coffee and will go now and sit by fountain in yard and listen to birds.......xoxoxo pat