Posted by SLS on July 2, 2008, at 20:06:36
In reply to Re: I'm back, posted by Noa on July 1, 2008, at 13:50:55
I've missed you.
This bad time will pass for you. I'm sure of it. In the meantime, don't give the negative thoughts that you are having too much credence. They will mitigate on their own with time. You might need to step back and do some reality testing - CBT style. You are probably more in shock than you are in denial. That's what it sounds like to me, anyway. Catastrophism is one of the thought distortions that can lead to suicidal ideation. Maybe you can break your world into smaller, more manageable pieces, and temporarily compartmentalizing those things that cannot be dealt with in the present. Somehow, you have to first reduce your level of anxiety. Anxiety can fuel suicidality.
I have been doing substantially better than when I saw you last. I am looking to return to work this Fall. I must somehow explain 18 years of unemployment and no references. I'll figure it out.
I guess you can feel how much people love you and admire you. Know that you have sincere support.