Posted by karen_kay on December 26, 2007, at 10:01:30
i've had to explain to friends, relatives, even people i don't like that i'm not anorexic, i'm not on drugs, i'm not a crack head, my husband doesn't beat me if i gain weight, nor does he care if i gain 50 lbs. i keep thinking beforehand, 'ok, i'll just tell them that i am on drugs, that way no one will say another word about it' but i chicken out every time.
i've been told, 'you need to eat a cheeseburger' or 'what kind of medicine would make you lose so much weight' with a skeptical look on their faces. by people who know how much coffee i consume. by people who know just how very fidgety and neurotic i am. by people who see how i hover and never sit down (i get it by having a child who also never sits down and prefers to look for any type of sharp object that may be jsut within his reach. also the fact that i'm neurotic and think of the worst case scenario doesn't help, so when he wonders into a different room, i have visions of him falling and breaking somethign or other, so how could i sit down until he's 18 and not legally my obligation anyway?)..
what was i saying again? i think i was getting angry about something...
people who have known me my whole life and known how my weight fluctuates with my stress level still don't hesitate to ask 'are you on drugs?' and when i say, 'it's a variety of things, but i only wish it was drugs, and the good kind too!' (and did i mention that half of those asking are probably only asking so they can hope to score some themselves?) still don't notice the way i wince when they make stupid comments like that. and when i say, 'my medicine that helps keep me somewhat sane takes away my appetite completely', they simply say, 'well, why not stop taking it?' or, 'is it supposed to do that?' or, 'maybe you should take something else' No sh*t! and it makes me even more 'weird' about eating when people are making comments like 'you need to eat something' it's harder to eat when people are attempting to shovel cookies down your throat and you really want pork, no? (i'm a pork kind of gal, you know?)
ok, i think this rant is coming to an end. the holidays are ending. i see these people all the time anyway, so i don't know why they chose this time fo year to pick on me (then again, maybe i'm just more sensitive about it?).
there once was a girl on a med
who looked like a walking head
when people would say
'did you eat today?'
she shook and nodded her head!
(and then ate them!)das ende!
poster:karen_kay
thread:802696
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20071130/msgs/802696.html