Posted by TexasChic on August 22, 2007, at 21:59:56
In reply to Re: Cloudydaze » TexasChic, posted by cloudydaze on August 20, 2007, at 16:25:05
> I graduated college in May
Congratulations!!! That is a MAJOR accomplishment!
> and started my first real, professional design job 2 weeks before graduation. I was on top of the world during my last semester.
> I quit my job after 2 months.Aww, I'm sorry. My first job out of school lasted 3 months. The place closed down.
> I was having problems related to bipolar. I had too much trouble adjusting. My memory had been deteriorating, I was hardly eating (lost 6 pounds), I was a nervous wreck, and I HATED life. I would have probably eventually been okay, but I was working in place with about 6 other men, and no women, and they were complete jerks. A few of them treated me like scum, I imagine simply because I am a woman. The senior designer (my supervisor) was the worst, and he was trying to get me fired, i think.
Sometimes its best to just bail on a bad job situation. I've had a few myself. Other times its worth toughing it out - you just have to use your best judgment (that's really all any of us can do).
> So since the middle of June, I've been unemployed and horribly depressed. I was concerned about my memory problems (it has been deteriorating over time - I can't remember important events in my life, forget things five seconds after hearing them, long term & short) so I went to see a neurologist. My dad thought I was having absence seizures. Everything came up normal except that they found a large cyst in my sphenoid(sp?)sinus (behind my left eye). This couldn't have been causing the memory loss, but it has been giving me vertigo, and it's gotten worse. I'm going to see an Ear-nose-throat specialist soon to figure out what can be done. It may require surgery on my head....EEEK.
Oh wow! Let us know how that progresses.
> The neurologist said that my memory issues are probably the cause of my sleep apnea or my bipolar, or maybe both. My apnea is not being helped by my CPAP machine. I don't know what else to do. It's really the only apnea treatment.
Well that sucks! But it kind of makes sense that lack of sleep would effect your memory.
> Anywho- the neurologist did refer me to a new pdoc. I started Lamictal about a week ago. I may get on Abilify as well. I haven't needed meds in so long.Hey, nothing wrong with needing meds. Personally I couldn't do without them. I hope they help you feel better.
> Now that THAT's out of the way - my daughter is doing beautifully. She started her first day of 2nd grade today, and is really excited about this year!
Aww, that's so cool! My nephew is starting 3rd grade. I had him over last weekend and took him to get shoes and jeans and a haircut. The lady spiked his hair up with gel, and when we got home he kept looking at himself in the mirror, doing that 'you the man' hand gesture saying, "I look so cool!"
> I am still living at home. I am now out of money, and trying to get stable and WELL enough to find a job. I did interview at a place that I really wanted to work, but they weren't sure they'd hire someone right away. And there aren't many other options for designers around here.
So are you a graphic designer, a fashion designer or an interior designer? I'm a graphic designer.> I've been making a little bit of money (very little) doing freelance work, including selling a line of clothing I designed for my Thesis project.
> Here's the website:
> www.cafepress.com/fresh_cut> I'm proud of my work :)
> unfortunately I've only sold 7 t-shirts.I will definitely check that out!
> So I've just kinda been sleeping a lot (but not well) and wallowing in my self-pity. I'm pretty good at that. I'm afraid my bf is going to tire of it soon. Hopefully he doesn't abandon me.I understand, I've been there. Hopefully the meds will help with that.
> Wow that's a long post.Not a problem. I'm very glad to here how you're doing. Hang in there, okay?
-T
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