Posted by Kath on June 12, 2007, at 9:55:03
In reply to Re: I am feeling so scared » Kath, posted by scratchpad on June 11, 2007, at 12:27:30
> ((((Kath)))) I'm sorry that your son's solutions to his housing problems are problems in themselves. Does it ring true to you that he's not able to find an appropriate roommate? or that accepting a room instead of an apartment is not as good as living in a tent?
*********Hi Scratchpad - thx for your support. You're SO diplomatic!!! It rings true to me that none of he probably can't find an appropriate roommate among his friends because most live at home & don't seem to be interested in going out on their own. Some are still in school & some don't have jobs.
The part about living on the street rather than get a room just boggles my mind! He has always been a person who will get a thought in his mind & be immovable on it, & he's even worse since the substance-induced psychosis. He sort of isn't the same person (sort of different personality in a way) that he was. It's really distressing. I can't get over the fact that he'd rather choose the street!*****> It kind of sounds to me like he isn't accepting this new reality that his disability pension has created. For me a room somewhere would be a better option than pitching a tent.
*******Yeah. I agree totally.******
> This is his decision, though, and his alone. As poor a choice as this appears to be, my take is that in a round-about way he's been wanting to get back to the familiar "people and places" where he used to use.*****Well, he's actually hanging out with all his same old friends & drinks daily & has been using cocaine at least sometimes. It's really horrible for me to know these things. Yet he says his life is ruined. He's REALLY depressed about his girlfriend (of 3 years) leaving him. He says she was his 'life' & now his life is gone. He doesn't seem to have the least thought of trying to go forward positively right now. He's said that all that 'works'for him is to hang out with friends & to numb himself with alcohol or drugs. I guess it's a positive in that at least he realizes he's numbing his feelings. I dunno.****
>
> I'm glad that you went away (the Bruce is such a gorgeous area!) and it's perfectly understandable that you were distracted from the beauty. Keep putting yourself in places where the beauty of nature confronts you. Keep stopping on your walks to look around and notice the wonderful perfection of the world around us. Keep reminding yourself that such beauty and perfection can exist in our imperfect world.*******Thanks. Those are good suggestions. I go away for "Kath's week away" soon, camping at Killbear Provincial Park. I'm looking forward to it in a way, but the thought of preparing is overwhelming & so often lately my stomach goes tight due to anxiety.
I haven't had that happen for years.
I really appreciate your caring.
Thanks so much, & of course hugs are ALWAYS welcome!!! luv, Kath> more hugs to you,
> Scratchpad
poster:Kath
thread:762350
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20070523/msgs/762619.html