Posted by karen_kay on April 29, 2007, at 10:44:18
forgetting everything.
i swear, i used to be smart. i was never good at math. i never could type. but, it gets to me sometimes to think about all the classes i've taken and forgotten.
and all the things i used to know and have simply no recollection of.
i hate it. i mean, i've always been dense. it's the forgetting that gets to me. and it's not jsut the stupidmax or dopamax or whatever you want to call it. it's that 'black hole' memory of mine (yes, i remember you calling it that).
i feel bad when someone says 'do you remember when you said 'xxxxx.' and i just htink 'wow! i said that?' good or bad. sometimes i surprise myself. but i really dislike spendign half an hour on a post, getting near the end and finding i can't recall the word for that liquor that is a hallucinogen (someone help me please!!! what is it?) so i jsut cancel the whole thing. or, getting into a discussion and finding i've forgotten the whole point of the discussion so i just feel stupid. (as soon as i hit submit, i'll remember the name of that liquor anyway so it doesn't matter)
can you get a head transplant?
i don't really hate it. it's jsut frustrating. and i hate frustration. is it uncivil to hate frustration? if so i'll take a pbc!
poster:karen_kay
thread:754386
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