Posted by karen_kay on March 23, 2007, at 7:09:08
In reply to Re: not yet noon.., posted by scratchpad on March 21, 2007, at 11:07:03
dangerous indeed my dear! i can be laughing hysterically in a flash and then crying for no apparent reason. then that starts the thought 'well, topamax at max, tried all other ms, now what? no ads to try, as they make me manic, jsut hopeless....'
of course, this could be situational. i am human (what? i'm superhuman!)
and do tend to forget (dear god, watch out, for i fear i'm going to sound like a hippie) how much things effect me. like sunshine. like coffee. like no sleep. like emotiions. like music. like voices. and fights. and laughter. and the duckie. and arrested developement (and that show can make me laugh for hours at a time but when it's over i cna go back to crying). and god forbid, but i'm thinking of cutting back on (shaking my head and tears are coming to my eyes as i'm even thinking about this one) the pot, because maybe even that has something to do with it. or, even better, maybe i just need to smoke more? (ok, that made me smile)
i'm sure it's jsut situatinal. mr kk and i are getting along great. perfect. everything's just perfect. i'm perfect, as always. it's just this silly head of mine, playing it's silly tricks, as
it likes to do. and you know what? as stupid and silly as this sounds, you know what seems to help me? to get all prettied up and go drive aroudn and wave at people, everyone i pass. and they wave back. i always knew it. i should have been a queen. or at least in a parade.and i saw a guy yesterday. in a huge truck. it was the biggest ruck i've ever seen. adn it didn't appear to be a case of penis envy. was with mr kk, but still wanted to ask him for a ride in his truck. just for an hour, you know? to go for a ride in a big truck, to be someone else entirely? do you ever want to do that?
thanks for understanding sweetie, here go thsoe silly tears again. at least they are the nice ones, from someone understanding.
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