Posted by SandyWeb on March 6, 2007, at 16:06:58
In reply to Has anyone here had an emotional breakdown?, posted by rjlockhart on March 5, 2007, at 23:55:55
MAY BE A TRIGGER TO SOME:
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--------------------------Yes, I've had two breakdowns. One happened right on this Board a few years back (I'm sure many of you remember it). It was a build-up of a few months, but then it just crashed. And as much as all these wonderful people on the Board tried to help me (including Dr. Bob, by the way, who personally got involved), I just went over that fine line. And I slit my wrist wide open. I wouldn't even let the cops into my house. LOL. I was MESSED UP....and not a single pill or alcohol in my system.
A couple of weeks ago, I had another breakdown....but not nearly as bad as the first. I took an overdose, but it wasn't enough to kill me apparently. I was in the ER for hours, hooked up to everything, because they said it was a lethal dose, but all I did was mess with my head and feel really out of it for awhile and EXHAUSTED for the first few days afterwards. However, after the ER, I was sent over to the mental hospital to spend the weekend. They kept me pretty much conked out over there (which was fine by me), but one night I walked into the bathroom, pulled a razor blade out of my pocket that I had hidden there, and slit my wrist again.
Anyways, enough of that. Yes, you have to reach the deepest low to get to that point. You have to be absolutely desolate and feel hopeless. And no matter what anyone says to you, you can NOT process it rationally. There is such a fine spiderweb of a line to cross over, and if you DO step over it....you're pretty much going to follow through with your thoughts. DO NOT CROSS OVER THAT LINE. You have to have noticed the line, right? It's almost like your last link to sanity. DO NOT, DO NOT CROSS OVER THAT LINE.
I wish you all the best!
God bless,
Sandy
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