Posted by karen_kay on February 14, 2007, at 17:57:30
still going nuts!
even with 400 mgs topamax, 2 mgs resirdal, 2mgs klonopin daily. meditation, visualization, relazation (ha!), ect.
i'm smoking pot even. nothing is helping. i'm crazy as a loon. bouncing off the walls. even found my artistic side, even if it involves drawing lemons and cherries, hippos, blocks, and other kids pictures.
my bedroom has never been cleaner. my appearance has never been better. my clothes are clean. bills are paid in advance. even getting credit because somehow i'm talking to them until they GIVE me credit for my hassle. no more miss nice kk here folks.
my husband got me a car for v day. a red convertible. let's hope i don't scerw that up and wreck it the first week i have it. i got him a danzig (darn devil music) jacket. i thought he should have gone with a nicer leather one, but you knwo how men can have their own opinion and change their mind. same things they used to say about women, you know.
the duckie's doign great. had a dr apt today. well above in social and motor skills (duh! look at his momma!)
i have no idea what day it is. i don't remember what i did today, but i know it was a whole lot of stuff. thatk god my meds help me sleep, or else i'd never sleep. not so angry anymore, the klonopin helps with that.
but, oh, just to slow down for just one day. i wonder what it was like before all this started? when i did almost nothing but sit around and watch tv all day? i feel like i'm losing my mind..... and oh how i wish i could eat a big bowl of butter pecdan ice cream right now. or some pop tarts. or even a stupid boca burger :)