Posted by Llurpsie_Noodle on February 1, 2007, at 22:14:34
In reply to Re: Feelin' no love » Phillipa, posted by Llurpsie_Noodle on February 1, 2007, at 22:07:02
sick sick sick. rotten inside and out. can't stop the bad thoughts.
yet my descent was mercifully abrupt. maybe this will all be better by morning.
I can fake it. I HAVE to fake it. life goes on.
and i keep having the urge to post secret cryptic things. and i cannot stop the shaking and the paranoia. who's reading? why? stop. that's not nice Llurpsie. where's nice Llurpsie. what the f*ck happened to her. well. maybe order will be restored. maybe i should just f*cking suck it up like everyone else does. who am I to complain? Why, when everyone else goes through this stuff all the time? why did I think i was better. a little adding there, weaning there, and what the f*ck. the demons are there, and I'm destabilified.
what are my options. go back on the fat pill? i don't even care enough about me to post my dilemmas on the psychobabble boards. whatever. let pdoc fix me.
-L
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