Posted by kid47 on January 26, 2007, at 13:33:56
It has been 11 days, 2 hours and 46 minutes since I last enjoyed it.
I miss it terribly. It was the perfect way to start each morning, and a fulfiiling, relaxing finale to the arduous rigors of the day. A wonderful way to temporarily relieve stress. Yes, I was warned by many, including my mom, that once I started I would find it next to impossible to stop. The more harsh and judgemental among you, called it nasty and vile. How could something that brought such pleasure and satisfaction be so wrong? There came a time when I realised I must give it up. I was sneaking off several times a day for a "quicky" when I should have been working. I even ducked out in the middle of my son's school play to dulcify this compelling yearning. No one else new...and I was loathe to admit...I had a problem. Since I have stopped, I find I am anxious (of course I'm always a tad nervous), irritable, and completely out of sorts. I DESPERATELY want to indulge. I try to find ways to compensate.....to somehow quell this craving. Nothing seems to help. I am giving up, with great melancholy, something that was a part of my life for a very long time. I must ask that you all help me beat this. As some of you may know, this is not the first time I have tried to get this monkey off my back. I f you happen to see me approaching, prepare yourself. I have been known to try and enlist others as enablers. You have my permission to give me a brutal tongue lashing should I utter the words.."Can I bum a smoke?"Have a perfect day!!
kid
ps...Bob & deputies...please don't redirect this to the substance board.
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