Posted by Rjlockhart on October 30, 2006, at 18:42:58 [reposted on October 30, 2006, at 22:16:06 | original URL]
In reply to Re: Disorganized, frustrated, overwhelmed, life... » rjlockhart, posted by Phillipa on October 29, 2006, at 21:08:07
Its that simple. Alot of people here to not know what i AM going through at home. Danmmit do I have get a recorder and put it on a website to hear what goes on in this house. And excuse me in not at home im at school. I dont and feel very angry sometimes because people dont understand what i am going through.
There was a really good post my notfred called "plan of action" you know im goning to go back and try to find that, get out of this house.
Ok, i have been told so many times that im looking for my own med. Im on Xanax 6mg for christ sake! and the doctor didnt just put me on it, it took 2 years until he decided it was the medication that i needed, I was on on Klonopin .5mg X 3 daily in 2003-2004 Ativan 1mg X 3 daily 2004, then Ativan 2mg X 3 daily, in 2005.I have been put on Zyprexa for trying to stay stable. I have been through MANY antidepressants. Let me go down this list....
1.I cant rerember.
2. Wellbutrin 300mg XL
3. Cymbalta 30mg
4. Prozac 20-uped to 30.I feel if i stay at home, which i have had a breakdown at home which my mother didnt bother but harrass me during it, my parents wouldnt not let me out of the house, i almost got violent, my stepdad stalked me, i finally got an ax and said one more foot near me and its it. I didnt because i knew that was wrong, i would go to jail, i gave up. I feel i have given up at home.
They wont let me take the car either if i move out.
What next? my mom said if you have antoher breakdown im calling the police. Well then first THEY will find out that she has been harrassing me, even though i have yelled at her back.
I cant.......i cant have another danm breakdown. It causes depression after words, severe depression.
Im going to have to do something durastic.
Matt
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