Posted by LJRen on October 28, 2006, at 1:07:36
In reply to Re: I am tired » Lindenblüte, posted by jammerlich on October 27, 2006, at 12:53:28
> Thanks, Li. It seems like, no matter how much I sleep, I just don't feel rested. And I'm just so lethargic.
Again, I'm right there w/ ya baby. My mom is always on me to get out of the house to meet new people, try new things... if she felt like I did, she'd understand it takes an act of God just to get out of bed everyday and into work.
> I had an "emergency" T appt this morning about some of this stuff - the "crummy mother" hole and wanting what I cannot have
Do you mind me asking... what is the "crummy mother" hole?
And the wanting what you cannot have thing I'm an expert at as well. It's always love isn't it. You want love, affection from parents, friends, men/women partners, but you never really get it.>I cried wet spots on my shirt. That's a new thing for me. Tears don't usually get that far in front of other people.
Was the same way w/ my last therapist. Could never let that wall totally down in front of her. Don't know why.
>I would have liked for her to hug me today. She did pat my back as we were walking into her office, so I guess that's something. CRAP!!! I do not want to want or enjoy those things from her.
Ya know, there's nothing wrong w/ wanting hugs. There is something very powerful about the human touch. I know I personally crave hugs myself but rarely have anyone around to receive them from. I doubt there's any scientific proof of it but I'm a firm believer that there is a transference of energy from one person to another during physical contact whether from a hug or something else. Therefore, it is completely understandable that people such as ourselves who feel so worn out would yearn for hugs from those we are comfortable with. So, try not to beat yourself up so much for wanting something like that. Besides, wanting a hug from your therapist doesn't seem all that inappropriate. Then again, there may be more to that situation that I'm not aware of.
Anyway, just wanted to let you know you struck a chord w/ me tonight. Perhaps there's a possibility we can help each other out.
Take care,
Ren
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