Posted by Deneb on July 11, 2006, at 1:02:01
In reply to Re: I still don't have an appointment yet *trigger, posted by Deneb on July 11, 2006, at 0:42:38
I can't stand this! I'm scared, I'm scared. I believe I have cancer and I'm dying! I don't want to die from cancer. I don't want to die! If I have cancer, I'm going to kill myself.
I can't stand the waiting, the uncertainty. I can't stand it! No one cares. The surgeon doesn't care if I die from cancer. No one believes me because I'm so young. It's going to be too late when it's discovered. Then I'm going to die from breast cancer.
I'm dying! I'm dying! I don't want to die from cancer. I'll kill myself first. I don't want to suffer. I don't want the slightest discomfort. If I feel pain, I'll kill myself. If I get too scared, I'll kill myself. I'm not a brave person. I'm not a fighter. I don't want to fight for my life.
I just wish I weren't so young. There's so much I haven't experienced yet.