Posted by TexasChic on June 10, 2006, at 15:58:21
In reply to Re: I hate this » llrrrpp, posted by TexasChic on June 10, 2006, at 12:26:10
I did it. I sent the embarrassing email telling him I liked him. I don't expect to get anything out of it except the knowledge that I was able to say my piece and explain some things. I just hope I don't run into him anytime soon! But I considered that before I sent it and decided I had to do it anyway. Whatever happens happens. Here's what I wrote (let me know what you think, but please be gentle):
Well, I guess I’m not going to get a response from you, so I’ll just have to let it go. But before I do I wanted to tell you a couple of things. I don’t know if you ever realized, but for the longest time I’ve kind of had a crush on you.
That’s why I’d get so upset when you did something that made me aware you didn’t really care about me all that much. Or maybe you did know about it and this was
just the easiest way you knew of to get rid of me. I always knew you didn’t like me back that way, but I thought maybe we could at least be friends. Apparently I didn’t handle the situation very well, but it was kind of hard to know where to put those feelings when I sat by you at work everyday. Then when L_____ and P_____
started harassing me, it made it that much more difficult to stay indifferent. I knew having them dislike me would soon lead to you feeling the same way.Just to let you know how they really are; after you didn’t come back from lunch, I realized you intentionally left without saying goodbye, even though I was sitting right there as you cleaned off your desk and got ready to leave, and in spite of the fact that I told you I wasn’t coming back. I started crying, but was trying to not let anyone see. But P_____ and L_____ saw and gawked at me across the room. They weren’t even trying to hide it, they were even standing on their tip toes so they could see me better. They LAUGHED and said, "She didn't know he was leaving!" Then they proceeded to walk around and say your name as much as possible when near me. Other people witnessed this too. N_____ and I were sitting there speechless, amazed that anyone could be so childish and ridiculously transparent! I still don’t understand how a grown person could possibly be that immature, not to mention mean. P_____ would say, "Hey L_____, come read the review B_____ wrote about this movie!" And L_____ would run over there so they could talk loudly about it. That was the point when N_____ said, "OMG, that’s unbelievable. I mean its really, really unbelievable!” I told him I was glad he was witnessing it because their behavior was so over the top no one would ever believe they really acted that way (it wasn't until later that I found out other people had heard too). Of course this was just an example of what I had been putting up with all along.
So anyway, in spite of how embarrassing this is, I felt I needed to tell you what really went on so you wouldn’t think I was just crazy. Maybe now you can understand a little bit of what I was going through and how much more difficult it all was because of how I felt about you. Or you just think I’m crazier than ever. But I guess there’s not much I can do about that now.
Goodbye B_____
************************Well that's it. I hope I did the right thing. I just felt like it was what I needed to do. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, but replaced by a humongous scary feeling!
Aw hell, its 5 o'clock somewhere.
-T
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