Posted by inja on April 14, 2006, at 6:30:38
In reply to I am so upset, posted by ClearSkies on April 13, 2006, at 14:10:52
i'm a day late and a dollar short as usual, but i wanted to let you know, as many others have, that you are SO not alone in this body imge sh*t.
i've been as big as 300 (whilst living with husband #2) to as little as 112 or so (after 1st separation and my downfall into Xanax). and neither weight made me feel any better about myself.
some how, luckily for me, i seem to have made "peace" with "inja's body attitude, self image and self accceptance". oh hell, i binge from time to time, but haven't purged in a very long time.
it's taken me a long time to get here, but i worked hard on it. i truly did. strange thing is that i never really dieted to get from 300 lbs. to my current 140ish lbs. it just seemed to drop off so to speak, when i learned how to love inja 1st, put her 1st, and took the rest of it One Day At A time (ODAT).
now that hubby #2 dumped me-a few years ago, and i met and miraclously fell for #3, my weight had stabilized, with no more that 4-6 lbs. back and forth (i.e. holidays, etc).
CS, my heart hurts for you because i know exactly the things you say to yourself in your head. i think i would be making a good guess if i were to say that you would never speak to anyone (about this issure or something else) like the way you speak to yourself.
CS... put your arms around you, tell yourself that you love yourself, your ok, and that you are INDEED GOOD E'NUF! i've been doing a LOT of reading on these boards, and lookit CS... you happen to be one of the best "support talk" people here (IMHO).
so... be your own best friend and not the enemy. look in the mirror if you can (i couldn't for 19 years), and tell CS that you love her, you accept her JUST THE WAY SHE IS (not yelling here, just emphasizing) and that she is a very valuable link in this chain we call life.
i'm only relating to how it worked for me. everyone is different. but truthfully? it really could be the start of some serious self inage healing.
my thoughts prayers are with you.
your friend,
inja
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