Posted by Enigma on April 3, 2006, at 14:20:49
In reply to Re: Will I ever work again?, posted by fairywings on March 29, 2006, at 12:38:55
Hi.
Consulting was suggested to me, but the problem is, my mood changes *daily*. It's insane. It actually changes during the day, if you can believe that.
My daily cycle:
Wake up very late
Hit the computer for internet/games/email/etc
Hope to get energy and motivation to help around the house and work on my "list" of things to do
50/50 chance of doing one of those things
eat dinner with family
back to computer
when family goes to bed, I head downstairs to watch a movie, and am up till 3am
then try to go to bed
toss and turn for 1.5 hours and my brain is on overdrive, flooded with thoughts or revenge, worry, fear of life (working again, career, money), etc, etc..
Usually need sleep aids or klonpin to slow me down so I can get to sleep.
But, if I use sleep aids, I usually get up after 10-12 hours or sleep, instead of 6-8.
Usually depressed the most upon waking up, and late at night.Anyway, that's what it's been like lately.
This cycle changes every 1-3 months. Been plagued with headaches for weeks too. Had a sinus infection that wouldn't go away, even after 3 different anti-biotics. Now I'm worried something else is wrong. I want an MRI, not more useless drugs. Good luck convincing a doctor of this.
Oh well...
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