Posted by James K on March 28, 2006, at 19:06:37
In reply to I miss you James K..., posted by Jai Narayan on March 24, 2006, at 20:48:14
Thanks this means a lot that you miss me. I'm home for a night. I admit to a longer term program tomorrow morning. After a week, my pdoc didn't think I had to stay while awaited a bed. Detox and withdrawal were the hardest I've ever done. I guess because I drank more, and they also took me off of benzos and put me back on welbutrin and lamictal, all in one long week. No sleeping pills either.
But, it was the most peaceful hospitalization I've ever had. I think my attitude is more accepting of the reality and importance of this this time. I had a couple of angry moments, but no acting out. I have to keep the reality that I can't drink in mind, and I have to work on the emotional issues that keep me in a state of defensive aggression so often.
Nothing seems real right now, side effects and withdrawal effects show more at home than in a strange environment I guess. I don't know if I will have any internet access at the next place, but I will know tomorrow.
So many here have helped me, or entertained me, or just communicated with me through these several uncomfortable months. I don't want to name names, because I might forget some, but you all helped me stay alive while I've had this struggle. Thank you.
I'll let you know how things are going as I can.
I may be back on for a short time later tonight, I don't know yet, sleep, packing, talking, etc. to do.
love,
James K
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