Posted by sleepygirl on January 25, 2006, at 12:42:35 [reposted on January 26, 2006, at 0:54:59 | original URL]
In reply to Lack of structure, isolation, lack of purpose, posted by Lucia Francisca on January 25, 2006, at 11:39:33
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> this new semester i feel just like i have so much empty time in the day that i don't know how to feel. i teach those 3 days a week, which gets me going, but the rest of MWF is still a whole day and i can't seem to figure out what to do with myself. ditto for T and TH, although sunday, tuesday, and thursday night i'm usually frantic cuz i don't prepare my lesson plan until the last minute and then am scrambling to get it together. for the last week, i've been having a lot of anxiety about teaching, fearing students think what i'm saying is uninteresting and obvious; i've been having problems, finding it challenging teaching this new book. i guess i'm still getting used to the new semester and the class and new students. but in short, i seem to stress out about every little thing about the class.Hi there. Well, I don't know what to say, and of course you can take it or leave it, but I think you've got a lot of pressure on yourself and a lot of uncertainties. The problem with procrastinating about things is that it only pushes off the anxiety into a tremendous mountain at the end that one feels they can't possibly climb.
This may sound simplistic, but have you considered making a schedule for yourself to follow, so you can eliminate some big choices for yourself and just surrender to a little routine? I don't mean an all work and no play (makes Lucia a dull girl) type of schedule. There is the tiredness factor there, and after all we are only human right? but this sounds really important to you.
I'm just thinking that when you fear that you can't do something you might psych yourself out enough to start REALLY believing you can't, and thus you don't. I can't say writing a dissertation sounds like a lot of fun (to me). I hope though you can find something you really like within it.
It'd be nice if you could enjoy your days, and then have a little hope in the future. We sort of get lost sometimes in our obligations/goals, and then they aren't fun anymore. There's got to be more than that I'd guess, but then there's a lot of anxiety along the way, so the question might become "is it worth it?"
just some thoughts......be well
-all the best,
sleepygirl
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