Posted by sleepygirl on January 10, 2006, at 19:02:34
In reply to I hate being inside of me, posted by Dinah on January 10, 2006, at 18:00:00
I'm glad to hear you're feeling calmer, sounds like you felt pretty flooded/overstimulated and all.
I tend to get really overstimulated as well, but at the moment I'm pretty understimulated (go figure, I can't win). When I get like that I just want to be home, to calm down, but sometimes it takes a while. Things outside really can set me off, mess up my equilibrium.
When I'm running like that sometimes I like to think of it like a car at a super-high idle that can't drive effectively.As far as others being aware of how you were feeling they may not be as focused on it as you are and/or really appreciate the intensity you do. They may notice 'something', but not as keenly as you do. I of course can't know.
You know I kind of think I give people more credit than they deserve in assessing their ability to sense how I'm feeling, you know pick up on the crazy anxiety and all that. I feel like a wickedly disorganized mess, but people tend to tell me I'm a calming influence (which makes me think "what? who are you talking about?") for the life of me I don't get that one, I just don't.
Anyway you look great from the outside! Sorry about how you feel sometimes on the inside though.
-all the best,
sleepygirl
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