Posted by allisonross on November 15, 2005, at 10:54:51
In reply to Re: This soon-to-be shrink will NEVER suicide! » ace, posted by ace on October 19, 2005, at 23:33:09
> > > Hi, Andrew (I think i got that right); you must be the brother I never had! My middle name is: NEVER give up. I won't go into long details here, but my story was posted in an on-line psych. journal (to my utter amazement)
www.psychiatricjournal.com, entitled: THe Transcendent Child on Overcoming Verbal and Spiritual Abuse
My own website (courtesy of a church who kicked me out because I got a divorce after 31 years of abuse):
www.churchabusepoetrytherapy.comThe Reader's Digest Version? Grew up abused by a mentally-ill mother (physical and verbal abuse); molested by a drunken neighbor while asleep (didn't know who it was at the time), when "mother" left for the evening...
in the rat-infested, cockroach "estate" (tenement house, which had no foundation, insulation, and snow which came in thru a crack in the wall. Some fun poverty stuff: No phone, bathroom, refrigerator or car.
had my hand held over an open fire by another drunken (woman) neighbor.
Joined the army right out of high school (from Maine to San Francisco---culture shock!)
"Married " my mother and tried to fix the past. Divorced afte 31 (well, 39 really) years of abuse.
Voted out of church membership, with my name up on a big screen, followed by the words: CONDUCT UNBECOMING A CHILD OF GOD.
I counse abused women (verbal abuse being my expertise); it is rampant on our planet, and rarely recognized.
I've written my memoir; Ghost Child to Triumph (from a child with no voice, to someone who speaks up against injustice in the world), and have a publisher interested.
I think perhaps I've never been beaten down (faith, wicked wit and sense of humor have kept me from drooling in a corner, somewhere)
I think in part because of genetics; Captain Sam, my ancestor....in 1776 he was 80 years old. He went out and fought the British singlehandedly! he was beaten, stabbed and bayoneted 16 times, had half of his face shot off.....When the townspeople came to pick up
his "dead" body, he was still full of fight, trying to get off one last shot at the retreating Redcoats.
not only did he live, he lived to be 96 years old! His story is on a website: Captain Sam: America's oldest, bravest soldier'!
He is my hero! Glad I chose him as my ancestor, too!
Love to hear frm you, as I am pretty new here. We sound so much alike, it is scary.
As my therapist (went to him for the church debacle) sez; "Do you know anyone like you?" I said, "no" and he said: "Neither do I!"
He sez I would make a "wonderful" therapist, but I think that I am in the place I am (meeting people on the net and outside), because i am supposed to be on the mission to help abused people....so my lifetime of the same
will not be in vain. That would be a tragedy and such a waste, to NOT do something with my knowledge.
P.S. My son's name Is Andrew, also.
Smiles, and grins, Alice (overcomer and wounded-healer) Keep on keepin' on! I ALWAYS will!
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> 26. A horrid history of anxiety/depression/OCD (psychotic features). But, in spite of this, I have NEVER given in, and will never. I used my tremendous pain as a source of growth -- this was not easy but. When I was in agony in the past I used to say "Andrew, be strong, be a trooper, this is part of my existence and I MUST endure, it will make me stronger in the end" I believe persistence and endurance makes a person God-Like. If you go to my band website and read my interviews will see how strong my will is. Everything I suffer, I try to turn it to my advantage in any way possible. I am very dynamic and flaymboyant, but that's me! Every situation, even the most terrible, can be used to our advantage.
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> > Also, around 18, I read the great philosophers: Schopenhauer, Hume, Kant....the guys had a huge effect on me. But, like my father and in my family, I am inherently a strong creature who can endure.
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> > I have a will made so elite, and iron pumping through my veins....
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> > I urge all you guys to take the same stance, cause you ALL have that potential. When you cry in pain and suffer, SUFFER!!!! But realise it teaches you just as much as happiness sometimes.
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> > All you guys and gals are very close to me, even though we are in cyber land here. But I urge EVERYONE of you, that in your darkest days....."NEVER GIVE IN- YOU ARE BRAVE TROOPERS!"
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