Posted by AdaGrace on October 21, 2005, at 10:39:49
I think that means I am having a better day. It's hard to even type, or talk about anything. I keep re reading my posts and e-mails and it makes me start crying again. I feel foolish, it's like another addiction. By repeating to myself what I have said and what others have said, I can't seem to stop that. I guess I keep thinking that somehow it will read differently that it has all the other times before, and that for some miracle, I am not insane, depressed, or an idiot.
Thank you for your support. Throughout everything this past year it seems that your responses are usually the same. It is a warming effect, and I do appreciate it. This road is really hard. I don't see the sun on the horizon, but I guess I know it's there. Sorta like faith I guess. That is the closest I have come to having any faith in a long time, so I guess it's a good thing.
I hope everyone has a good day.
poster:AdaGrace
thread:569785
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