Posted by platinumbride on August 29, 2005, at 11:51:12 [reposted on August 29, 2005, at 18:52:03 | original URL]
In reply to I think I should just go buy a gun, posted by jerrympls on August 26, 2005, at 16:08:42
When I was singing opera professionally, I lived with, perhaps, a lot of the uncertainty that you do, and sometimes I felt that it would surely kill me. But when you have to get the stupid audition done, or concert or opera, you have to figure out a way to compartmentalize. There were times when I was so anxiety-ridden when I couldn't memorize even a page of music in a day. I also was moving at the time. I actually started to find relief in looking at the damn music for 5 minutes, then packing for 10, then back to music for 15 minutes and packing for an hour, etc. The running back and forth itself became a comfort, and I DID get through it. I mean I had melt downs too, don't get me wrong, but in the final analysis I packed (took a looooong time), got the music into my voice and memorized it in time for everyting.
The life of a musician is hard. I always envied the singers who had spouses who helped them through. I believe that if I had had someone dedicated to me during the hard times, I would probably still be doing the whole thing, even now...
I digressed....
Do you think you can jump from one thing to another? You just have to start focusing for even one minute at a time.
I truly wish you all the best....I think you can get through this.
Diane
> ..and finish this nightmare of a life.
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