Posted by JenStar on August 27, 2005, at 13:10:09
In reply to Am I horribly indifferent to death? ***Trigger***, posted by Deneb on August 26, 2005, at 21:22:55
Deneb,
from your posts, I would surmise that you are indifferent not to death, but perhaps to other people's trigger level about suicide and death?The fact that you think about death so much, and bring it up so often, makes me think you're far from indifferent to it.
But it does concern me that you seem to joke or refer lightly to suicide, even though many people have told you it really disturbs them. I can tell that you're a very smart and kind person in general. So I don't know why it is that you continue to talk about things in a way that is disturbing?
I don't think a T or doctor of any kind could be considered compassionate or caring if they were NOT disturbed by a suicide on their watch! I'm sure it's devastating in a way to lose someone whom you were trying your best to help. Of course doctors must remain partially dispassionate in order not to be wrung dry by multiple patients, but still, suicide is a serious thing and would hurt the ones left behind.
That being said, I still believe the only person responsible for a suicide is the one DOING it -- no one else is to blame. Others can try to help, but it's up to every individual to decide for themself how to live and sometimes how to die.
Yes, I think it IS wrong to think that all p-docs should have a suicidal patient carry it out. I think saying that is pretty offensive to doctors and also to the suicidal patients! How would that help a doctor, in your opinion, to treat other patients? Would it really change anything? It seems to me that you're kind of in a place where you're interesting in understanding 'blame' for a suicide, and from the way your wrote the post, I interpreted that you might blame a p-doc for a patient's suicide. LIke I said above, I would disagree with that. I think every person owns their own life and the responsibility to keep it going!
Deneb, I care about you and I'm trying to help. I'm sorry if my post sounded harsh. I guess I just feel frustrated when I read posts about suicide that seem to joke about it.
I hope you're well and that this mood passes quickly, and that you're back to being *you* again soon!
take care of yourself!
JenStar
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