Posted by Shortelise on July 27, 2005, at 0:35:41
I have read enough venting, whining, complaiing notes in my time here that I feel little compunction about writing one - you are forewarned, right?
First of all, my MIL is sick in another city. SHe's 84 years old, my husband was there when it happened ten days ago, but had to come home to start a new job. Plus, he was so homesick. She's in a rehab center, and my brother and sister in law live in the same city. They are not seeing her often and can't tell us what's going on with her. My husband is SO WORRIED about her. I can't go until ....
My niece is visiting until next Tues. She is 15, has ADHD and is driving me up the wall. She is so obnoxious. Her parents are idiots, her father is a racist, ignorant mysogenist. Her mother, my sister, is obese, has no self esteem, she and her husband have a horrible relationship - no violence but no love. My niece reflects all of this in the dreadful way she interacts.
We alslohave a student who lives with us whom I love dearly, but who is having money problems that we cannot help her with - so many of the students who come end up having financial problems. There is nothing we can do.
My T and I are going through termination, and he read me the riot act last time I saw him. I feel unsupported, like 42 D jogging with no Maidenform. :-) Ok, well, my (really bad) sense of humour has not desrted me!
Seriously, my husband witha new job and a scik mother is not here for me. I have to be the pillar of strength for everyone around here right now and I don't feel up to it. I am doing it, but oh, oh, oh, I am so tired. It feels like I cook one meal and it's time to cook the next. My niece and I do something, a project, craft, go to a moive or something, and she there in my face, saying, ok, what next?! And we streaked her hair today (the student and I) and she didn't even thank us!!! She's in that ingrate stage of adolescence that's so hard to take.
**Deep breath**
No advice please. I am going to my MIL's as soon as my niece leaves. My husband will calm down, and I'll do whatever it takes to help the student. I'll go for a massage, and will try to keep myself in a calm place. But it's so hard. With therapy ending, albeit very slowly, I feel really alone.
Thanks for listening. It helps to write it down.
ShortE
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