Posted by geri122 on June 23, 2005, at 20:30:43
In reply to Re: Geri? » geri122, posted by partlycloudy on June 23, 2005, at 7:15:47
i just don't wanto to be like this any more. i don't want to be the weak one pretending tobe strong. I don't want to admit it because i don't wnat it. I am leaving for school on sunday and because of that i am loosing my best friend. She has been the only one i could ever turn to, and now i have to say goobye. I havent been happy for a long time, and now i have my friends telling me they don't like being around me because i am always in a bad mood. I DIDN"T ASK FOR THIS!!!!!!!!! i want to be normal again, when my biggest problem was a new zit.i just don't know what to do anymore, i can't do this, i can't pretend but i refuse to admit that i have a problem. i feel like everyone are always against me, even if they aren't, you know how hard it is to be happy with who you are when you don't even know who that is. I am scared of moving on in life because i am afraid i will fail. i don't want to be a no bosy, but i am afraid that i will. I don't know if i have the strength to carry on. I ask God every day but sometimes i feel as though he doesn't hear me or he is too busy. He is the only true one i have and now sometimes i question that. I know that is not right to say but that is how i feel. He is my father, the one i turn to for every, but sometimes i need some one here to just tell me it will be ok and wrap their arms around me and protect me!!! i just don't have that, i don't have anyone.
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