Posted by Deneb on June 22, 2005, at 23:12:50
In reply to Re: I don't feel connected anymore :-( » Deneb, posted by rainbowbrite on June 22, 2005, at 22:38:58
> honestly I think the less you *try* the better it is. Friends just happen, or at least thats how Ive experienced it IRL and here. Just be you
Being me hasn't been working for me. I need to learn to *not* be who I am right now. There is something wrong with my personality. My p-doc said I have a borderline personality. I think that is why I don't have friends.
I just know that right now at this moment I need friends, lots of friends. I feel lonely. I need lots and lots of attention right now I think...but it is selfish to ask for it. I just don't know what to do with myself...I'm restless inside, I need something. I feel like people wouldn't care if I died and that writing about this is selfish. I just don't know what to do. I feel evil for being jealous of all the attention other people get. I don't think anyone will care if I disappeared. I wouldn't do that though, because it is a horrible thing to do even if one person thinks I'm dead and I'm really just not responding...but I feel like I need to know that others care about me.
Oh, it's just a horrible situation. :-(
I can't explain myself well.Deneb
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