Posted by Shy_Girl on May 16, 2005, at 0:10:58
Something needs to change in my life...I need a boost. I have the life experience of a small child...I've never been on my own. I cannot even drive, I hope I can finally learn and get my license this summer. I hate cars though...I hate polluting the environment...but driving is a must in this society.
I thought about just travelling today...just heading out with a backpack, sleeping bag and map. Maybe I'll hitchhike! I want to visit California again...where I was born. I left when I was 11 yrs old. I can't believe I've been in Canada so long and I still haven't applied for citizenship yet! I really should...if I want to travel. I need to renew my US passport. I need to get out of the rut I'm in...I'm in the middle of nowhere...I need to get some perspective on life. Maybe that is what is causing my "affliction."
I got super excited just thinking about travelling...I felt like jumping with joy...bubbly...I want to experience an adventure!
Hmmmm...right now, I'm not doing anything...I'm stuck. I'm afraid to start things...afraid of school, afraid of working. I need to prove to myself that I can do things...I need to travel....not travel like tourists...travel like a traveller...not knowing where I'll end up. If I can do that, I'm sure I'll know that I can do anything I want to in life.
Maybe I should start right now. Maybe I should get my passport renewed tomorrow and apply for Canadian citizenship immediately (can I re-enter Canada with only my Landed Immigrant Papers???) It's wierd how I can be myself in this on-line forum. I haven't been here long, but I already feel like I want to meet people in person here. I'm actually quite bold when it comes to meeting people who are online IRL...I met my first and only boyfriend online and then very quickly IRL. Conversing with the astronomy club online also lead to me actually heading out with them IRL. It is a little ackward at first because you really don't know people until you've met them in person. The way I figure it is that once people meet IRL, it is easier to relate to them online.
Hehe, tonight, I have the fantasy of hitchhiking my way to Chicago to meet some of you guys and then hitchhiking my way West until I reach California. I'll stay there a while. I'll then head north to British Columbia and then east back to Ontario. I'll pass through many states and provinces and I'll have a grand adventure! Maybe I'll work along the way. Maybe I'll live in youth hostels, or sleep out in the open road. I'm sure I'll find some great dark skies. I'll observe the heavens with a pair of binoculars and a star map.
Hmmm...problem is, if I travel this way, I'll surely look like a bum when I meet you guys. LOL
poster:Shy_Girl
thread:498362
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